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Post by Gunhaver on Dec 31, 2023 17:54:18 GMT -5
Started training for Crisis Text Line today. Coincidentally, feeling quite miserable. I'm feeling really shaky about the future, professional prospects, education, and personal relationships. In a funk for sure but took some of the advice from this thread to pick myself up as best I can.
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Post by karl100589 on Jan 7, 2024 16:13:43 GMT -5
It’s been dark recently guys. The winter always gets me down and a combination of workplace confusion and never having a serious relationship at 34 is getting to me.
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chazraps
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Post by chazraps on Jan 7, 2024 16:23:50 GMT -5
It’s been dark recently guys. The winter always gets me down and a combination of workplace confusion and never having a serious relationship at 34 is getting to me. If you'd like to talk/vent, feel free to shoot me a PM. Here to listen.
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Ultimo Gallos
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Post by Ultimo Gallos on Jan 8, 2024 11:28:05 GMT -5
It’s been dark recently guys. The winter always gets me down and a combination of workplace confusion and never having a serious relationship at 34 is getting to me. Took me till I was about 34 to find the right person for me. Find something that makes you laugh or smile and do that.Like I have learned when my depression flares up I either take my dog for a walk or I go watch a comedy. Hope you find some light soon.
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Post by Gunhaver on Jan 18, 2024 20:32:44 GMT -5
I have my first shift on the crisis line later tonight and sweet cream on an ice cream sandwich I am inexplicably overwhelmed with guilt and shame. Goddamn my shit brain.
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Post by FALLOUT Goldashausen #BLM on Feb 3, 2024 14:38:56 GMT -5
It’s been dark recently guys. The winter always gets me down and a combination of workplace confusion and never having a serious relationship at 34 is getting to me. Took me till I was about 34 to find the right person for me. Find something that makes you laugh or smile and do that.Like I have learned when my depression flares up I either take my dog for a walk or I go watch a comedy. Hope you find some light soon. Currently 34 and right there in the midst of it myself. Work's getting much more difficult in very little time and the stress is overshadowing other portions of my life. I don't have much else to say, including any advice to give, but I'm right there with you. I'm hoping things get easier and I find a constructive way out of my current situation.
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Post by thechase on Feb 5, 2024 6:13:34 GMT -5
I was in my early 30s when I started my close friendship with my crush, she always turned down a date but we still love each other. It's weird, but I'm very weird.
You should cherish whatever relationship you find with a person, hopefully you find a good one, but try to be happy with yourself too. If you're good to yourself, you're gonna be great with everybody else.
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Post by zrowsdower on Feb 21, 2024 22:43:50 GMT -5
Yesterday marked six years of sobriety. And I should feel good about that. but I don't really. I struggle so much with trying to socialize. I feel conflicted with it in a way that a part of me wants to do so, but then I hate it so much, because of being overwhelmed with anxiety when I try. That's what happened tonight when I tried taking part in this D&D game online for beginner's. I got so nervous that I ended up just leaving the discord. I felt so pathetic.
And you know the other reason why I hate trying to socialize? People have hurt me so much over the years. Why should I try when there has been nothing but rejections and being judged harshly? This was one of the reasons I drank....to just numb everything. As crazy as it may sound I used to look forward to the hangovers because I preferred that pain to the emotional hurt.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I just feel like...yeah, I'm glad I'm sober, but I just wish my life didn't hurt so much. I wish I could be worth things like love and acceptance. Anyway, I'll just stop here, as I know this is getting more and more pathetic.
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Post by zrowsdower on Mar 9, 2024 10:26:15 GMT -5
Making another post but I don't care because this is my last one. I am tired and I am done with all of this. I am clearly not worth anything in this world. I have been hurt so many times in so many dumbass ways. And I am done. Because that hurt never truly goes away. Asshole bullies can "not remember" being asshole bullies and someone can "move on" after rejecting you in the worst way (how do they find the courage and strength?!). But this pain I feel....it's too much. Perhaps this is just some dumb shit way for attention. Clearly I am writing it on a public forum. But it's also to say how much I am fed up with hurting in vain, though there is irony that this post will be in vain.
Anyway, sorry for rambling....not that it really matters.
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Post by thechase on Mar 10, 2024 4:05:39 GMT -5
Making another post but I don't care because this is my last one. I am tired and I am done with all of this. I am clearly not worth anything in this world. I have been hurt so many times in so many dumbass ways. And I am done. Because that hurt never truly goes away. Asshole bullies can "not remember" being asshole bullies and someone can "move on" after rejecting you in the worst way (how do they find the courage and strength?!). But this pain I feel....it's too much. Perhaps this is just some dumb shit way for attention. Clearly I am writing it on a public forum. But it's also to say how much I am fed up with hurting in vain, though there is irony that this post will be in vain. Anyway, sorry for rambling....not that it really matters. I am truly sorry you feel the way you do about life and people in general. I don't know if you'll read this, but your venting does make people feel less alone in feeling the way they do, there are solutions, but they have to be willing to explore them...and if they can't, the best we can say is that we understand and focus on helping others, while hoping those we can't find peace with themselves, and in ways that don't bring harm to themselves or others.
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Post by zrowsdower on Mar 11, 2024 17:54:05 GMT -5
Making another post but I don't care because this is my last one. I am tired and I am done with all of this. I am clearly not worth anything in this world. I have been hurt so many times in so many dumbass ways. And I am done. Because that hurt never truly goes away. Asshole bullies can "not remember" being asshole bullies and someone can "move on" after rejecting you in the worst way (how do they find the courage and strength?!). But this pain I feel....it's too much. Perhaps this is just some dumb shit way for attention. Clearly I am writing it on a public forum. But it's also to say how much I am fed up with hurting in vain, though there is irony that this post will be in vain. Anyway, sorry for rambling....not that it really matters. I am truly sorry you feel the way you do about life and people in general. I don't know if you'll read this, but your venting does make people feel less alone in feeling the way they do, there are solutions, but they have to be willing to explore them...and if they can't, the best we can say is that we understand and focus on helping others, while hoping those we can't find peace with themselves, and in ways that don't bring harm to themselves or others. Sorry, I just had a really shit week and let it all just get to me in the worst way. I still feel pretty down but not as much as a few days ago. Thank you for reaching out. I'm going to do my best to keep going. Didn't mean to cause trouble sounding so dark like that.
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Post by Spider2024 on Apr 12, 2024 9:57:26 GMT -5
Hi.
I hope everyone's been doing well lately. Times are kinda always tough and there always seems to be a few things weighing on my mind on any given day. I would bet most of you feel the same.
Just hoping y'all can remember to keep a calm mind and attitude. You got this. 👍
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Post by James Fabiano on Apr 18, 2024 20:28:21 GMT -5
Ghosts just had an episode where a twist was one of the characters' deaths came about at her own hands. They ran the number and disclaimer afterwards. Classy move by the showrunners.
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Post by thechase on Apr 21, 2024 5:26:02 GMT -5
Ghosts just had an episode where a twist was one of the characters' deaths came about at her own hands. They ran the number and disclaimer afterwards. Classy move by the showrunners. Casualty and Eastenders run action line numbers almost every few weeks given the subject matters.
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Post by James Fabiano on May 11, 2024 8:19:34 GMT -5
Been in a rough way for the past few days. I feel it's mood swings cause I've gone off antidepressants. But...this adds to my usual self-loathing issues in general.
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Post by Gunhaver on May 11, 2024 21:28:55 GMT -5
Been in a rough way for the past few days. I feel it's mood swings cause I've gone off antidepressants. But...this adds to my usual self-loathing issues in general. Feel free to give me a shout if you need to vent. I'm a professional listener!
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Post by James Fabiano on May 11, 2024 21:31:21 GMT -5
Been in a rough way for the past few days. I feel it's mood swings cause I've gone off antidepressants. But...this adds to my usual self-loathing issues in general. Feel free to give me a shout if you need to vent. I'm a professional listener! Okay. I'm open to PM.
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Ultimo Gallos
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Post by Ultimo Gallos on May 11, 2024 21:52:17 GMT -5
Got some rough news almost 3 weeks ago.
And yea got a bit dark. But I always found some reason to keep going.
Might just be cause my dog depends on me. But anything to keep going till shit gets better.
Today was a better day. Tomorrow will be better.
Hoping all yall have better days.
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Post by Ultimo Gallos on May 15, 2024 13:54:01 GMT -5
I hate this time of year. Seasons changing back and forth has me up and down.
Added duties now means less time to decompress. Or still make time to decompress but that takes away from sleeping.
Once the season settles I will be good. Just focus on the good. Show this weekend. Might even have a beer at the show. Sit there and heckle some heels and make dumb jokes for a few hours while filming.
I know I can make it. Been through much worse and came out better.
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Post by thechase on May 17, 2024 3:04:55 GMT -5
Still feel at times that I have so much to give, but more often than not I'm just totally invisible. Whatever my interests or passions are, they're either incredibly niche or too uninteresting to share with others, whenever i post news that I think would excite people, it usually gets the "...anyway" treatment. I don't let it deter me from giving what I like a voice, I just wish people were more receptive in hearing me out about it.
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