Post by Earthquake-GEAUX LSU TIGERS on Nov 19, 2005 12:23:03 GMT -5
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I am going to try something new here. I'm going to post on days I have time, what happened ,when, etc., to share with you but also as a place for me to try remember things when I'm writing my chapter on cancer. If you feel you must comment on anything I've said, please start a new thread. Thank you.
After coming home Friday morning from doing yet another round of chemo, I was once again relieved to get back home. Surprisingly I did not get as nauseous as I usually do at the hospital during chemo. I know it is only psychological, from the times I felt so bad before, but I still cannot bring myself to eat the hospital food, despite it being quite tasty. Just the smell of the cafeteria, would bring on "gagging" spells and I'd have to rush to get past. Even the water that they give to drink tastes, and smells bad to me. My wife now brings me bottled water, drinks, and any food that I feel I can eat. It's kind of my balance. Once I get home I feel good. Correction, as soon as I step out the door from the hospital, I feel GREAT! Ususally I'll have my wife take me to IHOP or McDonalds for a quick fill. The hospital is my balance because any weight I begin to gain, I don't have to worry about because I know I'll lose it again at the next admission.
Saturday, my wife, Josie, gave me a new type shot they have to help boost white blood cells when they fall from chemo. I was taking up to six daily shots of a drug called Neupogen. This new drug is made (I think) by the same company and is the equivalent of six shots. The problem with this drug is it sometimes brings on severe bone pain as the marrow produces new white blood cells. Usually after four days I start to feel the pain, and can stop my shots so that the pain isn't too unbearable, but once you've taken this new shot, it's out of your hands until it has run it's course. I started to feel the pains coming, Wednesday afternoon. Throbbing in my breastbone. I started to take my morphine pills in preparation to ease the pain. The pain got stronger, and spread to other parts of my body.It emcompassed my chest,neck, spine, shoulders, hips, even down to my right knee. It is like a migraine in your bones-so very painful. I used to have a high pain tolerance, but this is totally BRUTAL! In the chest, if I didn't know better it feels like what a heart attack must feel like, except it is the bone. I was popping morphine tabs every couple hours, although it was supposed to be every four, but it did nothing for the pain. There was nothing Josie could do for me. She could only watch and sympathize. Massage does nothing to ease the pain, as we're talking about bone pain, not muscle pain. I couldn't lay down at night to go to bed as that made the pain worse. The only thing I could do that night was spend it in mylazyboy chair that my parents bought me for such occasions. I could sit but not lay. I was in pain ALL night. Josie slept in the living-room with me, afaraid to sleep in the bedroom in case I couldn't call loud enough for her. In the morning as my daughter went to school, the pain was less so I tried laying down, but the throbbing was still too strong, so I went back to the Lazyboy. Once the body has produced enough white blood cells, the medicine has an automatic shut-off. Thursday I still had a small amount of pain, but yesterday(Friday) I was totally pain free. Even my left hip that had been bothering me for a couple months stopped bothering me. In fact because constant hip pain is no longer present, I can say this is the best I have felt in months. When you're pain free, life is good. I don't know what is going on inside my lungs, if the chemo is working,or not. That's in God's hands, but with no pain, mentally that's a huge pick up. When I feel good I forget about my illness.
Also Wednesday, I did an interview with RD, and Blade for wrestlecrap. I talked about a lot of things from my cancer, my career, the WWE, and passing away of other wrestlers-most recently Eddie Guerrero. It was the first interview I've done since being diagnosed in April 2004. I'm just not in the mood to do interviews, but RD is now a good friend of mine, and he has a new radio show, so I was glad to help him out. At least I hope it helped him out. I had planned to mention a few of the names of people that post to me, but knew people would feel left out, so I scrapped that plan.
I am going to try something new here. I'm going to post on days I have time, what happened ,when, etc., to share with you but also as a place for me to try remember things when I'm writing my chapter on cancer. If you feel you must comment on anything I've said, please start a new thread. Thank you.
After coming home Friday morning from doing yet another round of chemo, I was once again relieved to get back home. Surprisingly I did not get as nauseous as I usually do at the hospital during chemo. I know it is only psychological, from the times I felt so bad before, but I still cannot bring myself to eat the hospital food, despite it being quite tasty. Just the smell of the cafeteria, would bring on "gagging" spells and I'd have to rush to get past. Even the water that they give to drink tastes, and smells bad to me. My wife now brings me bottled water, drinks, and any food that I feel I can eat. It's kind of my balance. Once I get home I feel good. Correction, as soon as I step out the door from the hospital, I feel GREAT! Ususally I'll have my wife take me to IHOP or McDonalds for a quick fill. The hospital is my balance because any weight I begin to gain, I don't have to worry about because I know I'll lose it again at the next admission.
Saturday, my wife, Josie, gave me a new type shot they have to help boost white blood cells when they fall from chemo. I was taking up to six daily shots of a drug called Neupogen. This new drug is made (I think) by the same company and is the equivalent of six shots. The problem with this drug is it sometimes brings on severe bone pain as the marrow produces new white blood cells. Usually after four days I start to feel the pain, and can stop my shots so that the pain isn't too unbearable, but once you've taken this new shot, it's out of your hands until it has run it's course. I started to feel the pains coming, Wednesday afternoon. Throbbing in my breastbone. I started to take my morphine pills in preparation to ease the pain. The pain got stronger, and spread to other parts of my body.It emcompassed my chest,neck, spine, shoulders, hips, even down to my right knee. It is like a migraine in your bones-so very painful. I used to have a high pain tolerance, but this is totally BRUTAL! In the chest, if I didn't know better it feels like what a heart attack must feel like, except it is the bone. I was popping morphine tabs every couple hours, although it was supposed to be every four, but it did nothing for the pain. There was nothing Josie could do for me. She could only watch and sympathize. Massage does nothing to ease the pain, as we're talking about bone pain, not muscle pain. I couldn't lay down at night to go to bed as that made the pain worse. The only thing I could do that night was spend it in mylazyboy chair that my parents bought me for such occasions. I could sit but not lay. I was in pain ALL night. Josie slept in the living-room with me, afaraid to sleep in the bedroom in case I couldn't call loud enough for her. In the morning as my daughter went to school, the pain was less so I tried laying down, but the throbbing was still too strong, so I went back to the Lazyboy. Once the body has produced enough white blood cells, the medicine has an automatic shut-off. Thursday I still had a small amount of pain, but yesterday(Friday) I was totally pain free. Even my left hip that had been bothering me for a couple months stopped bothering me. In fact because constant hip pain is no longer present, I can say this is the best I have felt in months. When you're pain free, life is good. I don't know what is going on inside my lungs, if the chemo is working,or not. That's in God's hands, but with no pain, mentally that's a huge pick up. When I feel good I forget about my illness.
Also Wednesday, I did an interview with RD, and Blade for wrestlecrap. I talked about a lot of things from my cancer, my career, the WWE, and passing away of other wrestlers-most recently Eddie Guerrero. It was the first interview I've done since being diagnosed in April 2004. I'm just not in the mood to do interviews, but RD is now a good friend of mine, and he has a new radio show, so I was glad to help him out. At least I hope it helped him out. I had planned to mention a few of the names of people that post to me, but knew people would feel left out, so I scrapped that plan.