I just had a breakdown

[Muskrat]

And I finally admitted to my parents that I have a world of mental issues. Anxiety, depression from my divorce and having my son stillborn, and that I just struggle to cope with alot of things. And I'm stuck somewhere between relieved that I finally talked to them, and crushing disappointment for not being the man I wanted to be, even tho my dad said "Bullshit" when I said I wasn't acting like a man.

I don't know if I need advice, or if I need to vent, but sweet f***ing f*** do I feel low right now. You guys here are the only friends I feel comfortable talking to about this. Tanks for listening, I love you all

[Deleted]

I'm mentally ill too. I completely understand what you mean when you say you aren't the man you wanted to be. I really don't know that I have any advice to give because I've been dealing with mental health issues since I was a child, and as a man in my 30's I'm still figuring it out day to day.

Just know that there are in fact people who understand what you are feeling.

[Chainsaw]

Love you too, man. I don't know you well, but don't ever feel like you're not living up to any expectations of what you're supposed to be as a man, either yours or anyone else's. We all have our issues, and you are far from alone. I hope getting this out in the open will encourage you to talk more about it. Fight the good fight, my man! *hugs*

[Muskrat]

Dec 28, 2016 23:27:51 GMT -5 @therealoblivion said:

I'm mentally ill too. I completely understand what you mean when you say you aren't the man you wanted to be. I really don't know that I have any advice to give because I've been dealing with mental health issues since I was a child, and as a man in my 30's I'm still figuring it out day to day.

Just know that there are in fact people who understand what you are feeling.

Its okay you don't have advice, I don't think I was looking for advice. I just needed to talk, and this board seemed easier to talk to then alot of my friends. A bunch of people showed up at my friends place when I was about to talk to hi about it so I lost my nerve. I just needed to talk. Or vent. Getting it off my chest is probably the best way to say it. Sometimes I just need to talk, and I don't always take advantage of all the good people I've met here in the 9+ years I've been a part of this board

[Urethra Franklin]

Sometimes doing something as simple as verbalizing what's troubling you is cathartic.

I think doing what you did is brave and I'm with your dad - the idea that having anxiety or any other mental or emotional distress makes you any less of a man is simply incorrect.

I think it takes a really big man to be honest with himself and those he cares about.

[Evil Homer]

I had a breakdown 2 months ago due to financial troubles and some mistakes- and was on the verge of doing self harm. Posting here really helped me get through it aĺl .

[SmashTV]

Dec 28, 2016 23:09:13 GMT -5 Muskrat said:

And I finally admitted to my parents that I have a world of mental issues. Anxiety, depression from my divorce and having my son stillborn, and that I just struggle to cope with alot of things. And I'm stuck somewhere between relieved that I finally talked to them, and crushing disappointment for not being the man I wanted to be, even tho my dad said "Bullshit" when I said I wasn't acting like a man.

I don't know if I need advice, or if I need to vent, but sweet f***ing f*** do I feel low right now. You guys here are the only friends I feel comfortable talking to about this. Tanks for listening, I love you all

I don't know you, and we'll most likely never meet or interact much on here. However, you have my total respect, support and encouragement for facing what you're going through. You've gone through a lot, and everyone has a limit. You've gone through more than most people should have to, but you're still fighting the fight. That's some of the battle taken care of. Hang in there, dude - you've got this.

[Mozenrath]

Your dad is right, what you did took a lot of guts.

Take this one day at a time, and try to be patient. Fighting this all is going to be a work in progress.

[sternrogers01]

I depend on pills virtually every day to keep my head straight, but I've never had it as bad as you seem to. Never been married, never had kids, my breakdown was caused by far more small-fry stuff that really seem petty compared to life-changing deals like yours. At least you're taken the right course of action and confided in people who will be your strength when you feel weakness. Your dad sounds like he will toughen you up from how you describe his attitude. Keep tough guv.

[Milkman Norm]

Just from one post you admitted to going through a lot, more then some people will go through in a life time. You lost your child, your marriage ended. I don't think having a breakdown is an unnatural response to that, even for people haven't been living with mental heath challenges. Just know that people are there for you. Know that there are people who won't judge you for who you are and what you need. Get the help you need if you can. Remember you've lived with this shit for your entire life. You're stronger than your jerk brain.

[Muskrat]

Thanks for the support guys. This has been a very long time coming, I've known something was wrong for probably 10 years or so now. I've just always tried to deal with it myself, to the extreme of pushing away those who recognised there was something wrong and tried to help. It's one of the main reasons my marriage broke down, I became very emotionally distant due to falling into depression.

It feels good to finally talk to my parents about it, who could not be more supportive. I have a friend who is going through a lot of the same stuff, so I think sometime soon I might go talk to him for some advice. I've hinted at it to him, and to my one other friend, but have never really opened up about just how bad it gets. I've become very good at hiding things, because I'm able to put up a happy outgoing front but it's been a daily struggle for a long time.

Thanks again for the support guys, I actually feel a little positive now, and hopefully this is the first step towards a better life.

Also, sternrogers01, we may have gone through different things but don't down play what you've gone through. Mental illness comes in all sorts of different shapes and sizes, none of your issues are petty. Just because we've had different life experiences, it doesn't make it any less difficult to cope with. Stay strong brother.

[crabbymelt]

Hugs if you want 'em.

[Annette]

Sending lots of love and 🤗hugz🤗 to everyone in this thread. I'm always around if you need someone to talk to.

Like, seriously. Love to talk.

[The Unconquered Sun]

wishing you, and everyone, peace and hope in the new year.

[sternrogers01]

Here's to a happier and healthier year to you mate