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Post by TheVoiceofReason on Dec 29, 2011 22:25:49 GMT -5
in your life?
Just recently I came to the self-realization that my current lifestyle of surfing the web for countless hours will inevitably do nothing for me in terms of growth, and I've been spending my time doing other things like reading and writing.
It hit me a couple of days ago that I was, in a way, living vicariously through others without even realizing it. All of those wasted hours on facebook eventually began to hold absolutely no meaning to me. What was I doing, spending so much time on a website that I loathed; I felt it served no purpose to me.
Pointlessness. Living life in endless monotony, observing that which I did not care about, and far too caught up in the mindlessness of mediocre existence. Failing a class in college recently was another contributing factor to my wake-up call, but for the most part, I've been seeing my life as nothing more than meaningless, and it's due to the amount of time I spend doing worthless activities.
I've even grown to hate online socialization and prefer speaking to others in person now, which I never thought I would think. There's something that's so fraudulent about "friends" on social networking websites that, eventually, you begin to develop hatred toward it and yourself. Nevertheless, I decided to take the initiative and improve myself. It's not so much that I'm obsessed with attaining perfection (which is illusory), but rather I like the idea of breaking away from the monotony of daily life.
So, that being said, have you ever gone through a shift in perspective similar to mine?
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Post by Burst on Dec 29, 2011 22:42:27 GMT -5
I've had the dilemma of having had this realization a number of times yet seeming unable to permanently change anything.
I've tried everything from hell and back to motivate myself, writing out an entire day's worth of activities (ignored), taking my computer away (brought it back)... I just don't know how to make my self-discipline not... suck so much.
It's irritating too because there's so many things I could be good at if I actually took the damn time to do them. I get distracted so damn easily and I don't know how to not be. It's almost like I have some sort of attention deficit, but I don't know.
I also don't know how to get around my impatience, which is another thing that keeps me from doing as much as I'd want to, because I get bored or discouraged waaaay too easily with any ventures I begin...
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Post by Tarik Dee on Dec 29, 2011 22:51:48 GMT -5
I've had the dilemma of having had this realization a number of times yet seeming unable to permanently change anything. I've tried everything from hell and back to motivate myself, writing out an entire day's worth of activities (ignored), taking my computer away (brought it back)... I just don't know how to make my self-discipline not... suck so much. It's irritating too because there's so many things I could be good at if I actually took the damn time to do them. I get distracted so damn easily and I don't know how to not be. It's almost like I have some sort of attention deficit, but I don't know. I also don't know how to get around my impatience, which is another thing that keeps me from doing as much as I'd want to, because I get bored or discouraged waaaay too easily with any ventures I begin... This is perfectly my situation, I'm pretty sure both of us are not alone in this, but yeah, that sucks a lot. |
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Post by agent817 on Dec 29, 2011 22:53:18 GMT -5
I tell myself that I need to change, but a lot of the time, I'm just too used to how I am that it's hard to change.
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Post by TheVoiceofReason on Dec 29, 2011 22:58:07 GMT -5
I've had the dilemma of having had this realization a number of times yet seeming unable to permanently change anything. I've tried everything from hell and back to motivate myself, writing out an entire day's worth of activities (ignored), taking my computer away (brought it back)... I just don't know how to make my self-discipline not... suck so much. It's irritating too because there's so many things I could be good at if I actually took the damn time to do them. I get distracted so damn easily and I don't know how to not be. It's almost like I have some sort of attention deficit, but I don't know. I also don't know how to get around my impatience, which is another thing that keeps me from doing as much as I'd want to, because I get bored or discouraged waaaay too easily with any ventures I begin... This is perfectly my situation, I'm pretty sure both of us are not alone in this, but yeah, that sucks a lot. It's bound to happen, really. Do some reflecting on what actually matters to you in life. I've been doing that lately, and it seems to be making the process much easier. |
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Post by Alex Shelley on Dec 29, 2011 23:11:10 GMT -5
My life was a wreck for a long time in 2009 and 2010, a large part of that was due to how stressful it was for me to live in the dorms at school. It all sort of came to a climax in April 2010 when I was hospitalized and put on mandatory psych hold. I had managed to get Serotonin Toxicity because of being poorly treated for my mental illnesses. I was stuck in that damn hospital for a long ass time because my blood pressure wouldn't go down and they were worried I was going to have a stroke.
After that I went through several months of just having my brain recover from the toxicity. I don't remember very much about that time period - poor memory is one of the big things that happens after Serotonin Toxicity. I also got on proper meds. Then it was time for a new semester of school and I moved into the dorms only to realize on my first night that I just couldn't do it. Living in that situation was horrific for my mental health and I needed to get out. So with the help of my parents I managed to get an apartment. Things were still rough for a while after that, but being able to live on my own has helped me in more ways than I can express.
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Post by The Line on Dec 30, 2011 3:58:13 GMT -5
Basically right now(or more accurately, relatively recently).
Within the past 9 months, my mom's died and my sister and I completely destroyed any relationship we may have had. On top of that, I almost failed out of school.
Starting next semester, I'm really thinking about the future. If not, I'm royally assf***ed
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