I apologize for everything

[Deleted]

Really, I do. For those of you who know me and know how I react to certain things, you'll know that I don't seem like the friendliest guy to be around. I often overreact to silly things and lash out when it's REALLY not necessary to do so. There's no real excuse to do any of these things, especially to such a decent community, so let me try to explain myself to you guys.

For the past few years, I've been a depressed wreck of a human being. I'm always shut inside my room and the computer is pretty much the only social life I have when I'm not talking to my family. I have no real friends outside of the few I have on here, and I'm constantly on the verge of breaking down due to how hopelessly alone and pathetic I am. And trust me when I say this. This is not pity fishing or anything. This is legit how I feel about myself. All of this shit tends to put me on edge and I become more prone to be a debbie downer when I'm on here, which is NOT a way to make friends at all. My snarky and downright belligerent attitude has gotten me in trouble and rightfully punished time and time again, and I wish it didn't happen. I really don't. You guys don't deserve hostility on top of hostility that I've been giving out, so I just want you all to know that I'm really trying to change things. My situation isn't the best, but that's neither here nor there. What matters is I'm gonna try and improve it, and in turn, improve myself. I wanna be a good person, and I want you guys to like having me around, and if I can't do that, then I don't deserve to be here ever again. You have my word.

[Mozenrath]

I hope you can find some peace and a little less inner-turmoil. Lord knows I've had some miserable times in my life, too, but the easiest mistake is to think that the way things are is the way that they'll always be, and that's pretty far from reality, most of the time. Good luck finding the change you want and need.

[Sam Punk]

I wish you good luck, my friend.

[Clash, Never a Meter Maid]

We got your back, bro. It's all good in the hood.

[The Unconquered Sun]

every moment brings with it a chance for a new beginning, use it wisely.
let go of your regrets from your mistakes, but not the lessons you learned from them.
and what you think, you become.
i wish you nothing but the best and peace.

[Glitch]

This is like the second person to apologize about their behavior, here on FAN.

Anybody else got something to say? It's open mic night.

[Deleted]

Boo. I really liked your heel work.

Honestly though, I'm something of a regret mark. Not that I want everyone to grovel everywhere all the time, but it's always nice to see someone not up on this "I am the absolute shit and am completely infallible" stuff that seems to be going around anymore.

We're all works in progress, my brother. The fact that you would extend your hand to people you fear you might have crossed on a wrestling fan forum board on the internet shows that you have a good heart. You just have to perform a little, er.... maintenance. Expect hiccups. Expect falter. Just keep looking and thinking and working.

There's probably quite a few regs here that could/would offer you some advice from a situation that parallels yours that might help to swing you around, were you so inclined.

[mcstoklasa]

I dont know you but stop calling yourself pathetic man, you can change, you can be happy and you can succeed in life. Best of luck

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Dec 23, 2014 4:24:04 GMT -5 Glitch said:

This is like the second person to apologize about their behavior, here on FAN.

Anybody else got something to say? It's open mic night.

Nah, these are better done as once a week things.

And to the OP, I've never had a problem with you personally. You couldn't have done anything too bad, since you're still here. Sometimes, you need to just step back and breathe. That's what I finally did and I feel loads better for having done so. Good luck to you, hope you get your head on straight, man.

[Deleted]

Looks like my face turn was a success.

Welp, time to turn heel again before I get too over.