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Post by Lance Uppercut on Apr 24, 2022 21:22:43 GMT -5
my thing, is that I always leave my phone on Do not disturb. Even when I’m home, and it’s late in the day when no one would call me. And I would often lose my phone and i can’t call myself to find it because it’s on Do not disturb.
I don’t know why, but I developed a weird anxiety over phone calls so I don’t even want to hear it vibrate in silent. The only time I leave it on full blast is when I’m fully expecting a phone call or message
If I was observing this in another person I would go mad with “stop leaving in do not disturb all the time!”
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Post by fw91 on Apr 24, 2022 21:31:50 GMT -5
I feel like that if my phone battery isn't higher than 90 percent, I have to charge it asap.
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Post by bibboid on Apr 24, 2022 22:12:46 GMT -5
I have brutal insecurity issues. My brain simply cannot accept that I have value. When work offered me a promotion I spent three weeks fully expecting them to change their minds and yet it away from me at the last second. I hate birthdays and Christmas because I can’t imagine why anyone would ever want to get me a present. I hate making phone calls because I am convinced the person I am calling doesn’t want to talk to me.
In reality, my job loves me. The company CEO and CFO have both stopped by my desk to tell me I am doing a great job. My family loves me. They would gladly get me any gift I asked for, if I would just ask for something. And for years people have told me that they actually enjoy talking to me on the phone because I have “a great telephone personality”.
I just wish I could relax and accept the fact that I am a really good person.
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Post by smokinvokoun86 on Apr 24, 2022 23:50:38 GMT -5
My depression that’s sort of crippled me the past few years. I’m finally starting to get up and do things and want to get a job by at least the end of the year. But apart of me is scared to death. Which is way I trying to get into therapy.
But i hate myself sometimes because I feel like a burden to people and my family. I’m lucky my family and friends are patient with me, and that they know that I just got out of a really awful abusive relationship and another relationship that was a failed engagement, so they I am grateful for what I have. But the constant depression and the crushing feeling of being a failure really makes me not like myself.
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Post by knsffa on Apr 25, 2022 0:23:10 GMT -5
I regret that I've been more open about myself since last summer largely due to thinking it would make my diabetes and mental health better. That led me to try to be creative again and share my work. Instead of it helping me to a better place like I thought it did for a while, I failed at my creative efforts after months of work and just reminded myself how not creative and worthless I am in everything I do in real life and online. I can't even look at my work or promoting of it cause I'm tired of hoping for success and being greeted with failure every time. In time maybe I'll learn not to hate myself for being open and creative. Right now I'm just trying not to be open about myself anymore; I'm trying to remember how to be closed-off again. If I had stayed closed-off I wouldn't have tried to be something I'm not. It's been two weeks since I started trying and I posted this so I need to try harder.
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Post by ARI WOW WOW on Apr 25, 2022 0:34:51 GMT -5
I get a haircut like once every 4(ish?) months cuz i fear they'll f*** it up and i'll end up looking weird. So i procrastinate it till my hair is wayy long and i start looking even weirder to the point that i am forced to take the risk of getting a bad haircut. #Anxiety
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Post by thechase on Apr 25, 2022 0:39:41 GMT -5
I'm an ambidextrous politician.
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Post by Heartbreaker on Apr 25, 2022 0:50:49 GMT -5
I make terrible, terrible decisions.
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Post by The Summer of Muskrat XVII on Apr 25, 2022 1:24:45 GMT -5
I make terrible, terrible decisions. That is basically my entire life. 9 month failed marriage, borderline alcoholic, viscous temper that has caused problems but therapy is helping a tonne. Way more often then I like to admit I know I’m about to do something stupid, or something I’ll regret and say “f*** it” and do it anyways. I’m typing this as I’m on the backside on a 40ish hour bender, atleast during this one my social anxiety didn’t kick in too badly but the unhealthy amount of drugs I was doing to stay awake to work the social for 12 hours didn’t help. I’ve got no excuse for the drugs I did today, but I did get to see a couple good friends I haven’t hung out with much lately. But as much as I love my one friend, he’s always carrying blow and that’s not a good thing for me. I have zero willpower and an addictive personality. my thing, is that I always leave my phone on Do not disturb. Even when I’m home, and it’s late in the day when no one would call me. And I would often lose my phone and i can’t call myself to find it because it’s on Do not disturb. I don’t know why, but I developed a weird anxiety over phone calls so I don’t even want to hear it vibrate in silent. The only time I leave it on full blast is when I’m fully expecting a phone call or message If I was observing this in another person I would go mad with “stop leaving in do not disturb all the time!” Even when I’m expecting the call, my phone ringing gives me horrible, horrible anxiety. I hardly ever turn my ringer on, I honestly take hours to respond to a text sometimes because it just stresses me the f*** out to be in a conversation I wasn’t planning on or didn’t initiate myself.
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Post by aka Cthulhu on Apr 25, 2022 2:21:52 GMT -5
Too much pride over certain things. Like, my medical condition. Back and joint pain all day. For a good long while, delayed the back surgery to help me out, and when it was done things were a bit too far gone to keep a decent posture.
Just a few days ago after a bath I was trying to pick up something on the farthest corner of my bed, and just after bathing my feet were a bit wet and I slipped and fell into a space outside of bed. Due to mentioned back and joint pains getting out was hard, but being dumb I just quietly sucked it up and got out after several minutes.
Didn't land on my head or back, but I realize it could have been worse and honestly I probably would have kept quiet for it for a while as it gets worse if that had happened.
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Post by Display Name on Apr 25, 2022 2:35:49 GMT -5
I’ve always hated making even a small hoopla over my birthday. I love getting together to celebrate my friends and/or families birthdays, but I always feel like I would be putting people out of their way to celebrate mine and never allow anything more than dinner with immediate family. I just don’t like attention on me. I’m weird.
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Post by The Summer of Muskrat XVII on Apr 25, 2022 2:35:50 GMT -5
Also, this is one I’ve really been working on the past few years (thank therapist Maxine), but I’ve got an awful track record for bottling up my emotions and keeping them in until I explode like an bomb. Quit a few jobs in a way that I would not be welcomed back, gotten into fist fights with some of my closest friends, verbally took a strip off my sister when she was a kid just wanting to hang out with her big brother. Hair trigger temper and struggling to properly deal with my feelings and emotions is a rough combination, if I was the person I was now 10 years ago I probably salvage my marriage.
Boy the old adage feels right, youth is wasted on the young. If I was willing to acknowledge and deal with my mental health issues 10+ years ago my life would be in a much different place. Maybe not necessarily better, I’m pretty content with where I’m at now but it would be very different. Would likely still live in my big ass old house instead of this little post divorce house. I’m always gonna feel bitter about having to sell that house, way too expensive to live in as a single person. And one of my best friends bought it, so I’m in it all the time and it eats me up a little when I’m there. Yeah, I’m rambling a lot at this point, touch tipsy
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Post by Cranjis McBasketball on Apr 25, 2022 3:05:29 GMT -5
Also, this is one I’ve really been working on the past few years (thank therapist Maxine), but I’ve got an awful track record for bottling up my emotions and keeping them in until I explode like a bomb. Quit a few jobs in a way that I would not be welcomed back, gotten into fist fights with some of my closest friends, verbally took a strip off my sister when she was a kid just wanting to hang out with her big brother. Hair trigger temper and struggling to properly deal with my feelings and emotions is a rough combination, if I I'm always interrupting people!
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Post by Push R Truth on Apr 25, 2022 6:28:57 GMT -5
I ration things to the point where I never use them thus rendering my rationing to be very wasteful, the exact opposite of my original intent.
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Post by salz4life on Apr 25, 2022 8:31:21 GMT -5
Procrastination and Anxiety
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Post by Fade is a CodyCryBaby on Apr 25, 2022 11:58:31 GMT -5
I was going to contribute to this thread initially but thought “nah I wanna unload. And it’s for pet peeves”. And then I see so many of you being brutally honest and brave about things. Props and respect. That’s definitely one. - I overthink. - i tend to placate people. - I’m either incredibly sensitive or overbearingly confident. - I believe I can be empathetic to a fault. - I can be morbid. Have a morbid sense of humor. And sometimes forget that’s a serious no- no for most. - Not as bad as it use to be but I use to enjoy shit-talking people. - I fall in the middle with, like, everything. Sometimes I tell myself it’s a benefit, nuance and moderation and all that. But it usually just sucks. And it’s stressful. - I can be very self-improving and very self-destructive.
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Post by King Boo on Apr 25, 2022 12:14:00 GMT -5
I was going to contribute to this thread initially but thought “nah I wanna unload. And it’s for pet peeves”. And then I see so many of you being brutally honest and brave about things. Props and respect. That’s definitely one. - I overthink.- i tend to placate people. - I’m either incredibly sensitive or overbearingly confident. - I believe I can be empathetic to a fault. - I can be morbid. Have a morbid sense of humor. And sometimes forget that’s a serious no- no for most.- Not as bad as it use to be but I use to enjoy shit-talking people. - I fall in the middle with, like, everything. Sometimes I tell myself it’s a benefit, nuance and moderation and all that. But it usually just sucks. And it’s stressful. - I can be very self-improving and very self-destructive.
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Post by Clash, Never a Meter Maid on Apr 25, 2022 12:16:40 GMT -5
Not giving myself enough credit for the little victories, I’ve discovered. If you can’t recognize when you’re making some headway, it’s impossible to enjoy the journey and progress.
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Post by Zaq "That Guy" Buzzkill on Apr 25, 2022 23:52:56 GMT -5
I cannot take a compliment. Probably stems from how I was treated as a kid, because part me always assumes any nice thing said to me is sarcastic or part of a mocking joke.
I'm always terrible at reading the room and other people. It causes me to have a toxic attitude that has cost me several friendships and no matter how hard I try I never seem to f***ing learn.
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Post by ERON on Apr 26, 2022 5:45:28 GMT -5
I have a hard time saying no to people, which leads to a lot of so-called "friends" taking advantage of my generosity, whether it's borrowing money and never paying it back, hanging out with me just to bum meals or rides, or simply coming over to vent about their crappy lives for an hour because they know I'm too polite to tell them to shut up and go home.
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