I shouldn't be depressed, but I kinda am.

[Johnny Danger (Godz)]

I don't even know the point of this 'thread', just to rant, mainly.

I should be happy. Got a new job to get me out of retail which I just couldn't stand another second of. It pays more than anything I've ever done before has...but I'm kinda miserable.

At least in my retail job I worked with my friends and we just screwed around and joked all day long, and it didn't even really feel like work a lot of the time. Now, I'm busting my ass all day long. It's really hard work, which I don't mind, but there is nothing resembling any sort of fun all day long. I can't really relate to ANYONE I work with, nothing to talk about, etc.

I work from noon-8:30 every day, except when I have to work overtime, so I get home anywhere between 9 PM and midnight, thus far. I'm so physically drained from the work I do that all I can do is collapse on the couch or in front of the computer for an hour or two before I go to bed and sleep till 10 the next day just to barely get enough energy to start the cycle anew.

Weekends are great. I get every weekend off, I work M-F. But at least when I worked other jobs I didn't feel dead when I got home, and I could salvage a few hours outta the nights to do what I want. Now I feel like I'm only living for the weekends, and my life doesn't stop sucking till they come. Does anyone else feel this way? How do you deal with the loss of freedom during the week? I've even tried sleeping till only 8 or 9 as opposed to 10, but then I wake up feeling sluggish and don't even WANT to do anything before I gotta leave for work at 11:30.

Hell, its time to get dressed for work right now, so I won't even be able to read any replies till tonight or tomorrow! So ya'll can probably call me an ugly mutant zombie troll freak and I'd never even know it.

Or, for a laugh, talk about how much you wanna have sex with me. It don't matter. None of this matters.

[Phosphor Glow]

Godz, I wanna sex you up so bad, you'll be all like "Hey...stop sexin' me up. It's kinda freakin' me out." And then you buy me dinner.

Really though coming home and feeling totally drained sucks. Even my current job, which is retail, does it to me. Mostly on busy days when the lines are just ENDLESS. It's pretty tiring. But me, personally...I try to stay up as long as I can. I prefer having time AFTER work instead of before. But that's just me.

Hope you get through it okay mang.

[Macho Dude Handy Damage]

Jesus, can't this guy catch a break? Come on...

And I don't wanna sex you up, Godz. You're not exactly my type, what with being a guy and all....

But hey, I hope things work out for ya.

[The Tank]

Godz, if you wanna get sexed up, why don't you just call Triple Kelly?

Seriously though, just try to look at the positives. You can't spend all your time dwelling on your problems, can ya?

[Spankymac is sick of the swiss]

Sept 22, 2008 10:49:49 GMT -5 Macho Dude Handy Damage said:

Jesus, can't this guy catch a break? Come on...

And I don't wanna sex you up, Godz. You're not exactly my type, what with being a guy and all....

But hey, I hope things work out for ya.

Little do you know, Godz is EVERYONE'S type. You just don't know it yet.

[Phosphor Glow]

Seriously, one day you'll be thinking about women, everything is normal.

And you'll wake up the next day in bed with Godz. And you really won't even question it. It's just...right, man.

[Grendel]

Cheer up, Godz. I work a job that put me on a schedule that I can't stand, working a rotating 12 hour shift and every other weekend. Unless they call me in for mandatory OT on my weekend off. You get used to it after awhile.

[Macho Dude Handy Damage]

Sept 22, 2008 10:55:04 GMT -5 Spankymac is sick of the swiss said:

Sept 22, 2008 10:49:49 GMT -5 Macho Dude Handy Damage said:

Jesus, can't this guy catch a break? Come on...

And I don't wanna sex you up, Godz. You're not exactly my type, what with being a guy and all....

But hey, I hope things work out for ya.

Little do you know, Godz is EVERYONE'S type. You just don't know it yet.

Really? Is it possible I've been worng all this time?

[willywonka666]

As I've mentioned, I have two jobs now, Radio, weekday mornings from 6-10(and sunday 7-12) and now a factory job from 3-11:30.

Trouble now is we're beyond f***ed production wise and working every day(I lucked out and was off this weekend)

I'm not miserable with it, but I want out. Right now it's good money, but I've decided that I only wanna work at what I love, and if it pays the bills, that's all I need.

I'm also considering getting into something I haven't considered in years-just have to see

[bigdaddyfive]

I can sympathise with the original OP. I got a new (supposedly better) job about a month ago, which I posted on here, explaining my delight.

A week later I'd left.

Why?

I realised my unhappiness was down to how confined (which often caused panic attacks) and meaningless work had become.

Now, I understand "we need money", "get with the real world" and the other statements that come your way when you mention this is how you feel. Nearly all human beings go to work and don't really enjoy it there - but have an inner drive, a work ethic of providing for your family, yourself and your social / personal life.

BUT there are some of us who just can't do that - even if it causes us massive problems. I've realised in recent works that, in effect, work was practically making me mentally ill. Which was mainly down to the fact of a personal regret that I never completed my A-Levels and went to University. At 25, I'd been having a midlife crisis since I was 18. I so badly wanted to return to College, to realise my eventual degree of studying English and Classical History at degree level - and then onto teaching, writing, exploring and generally creating a future for myself. A future I wanted - not a meaningless telephone-hawking job in an office.

So I did it. For two weeks now I've been study an Access course at my local college.

If I sound stuck up, then I do not apologise. I will have to suffer financially and lose many creature comforts that not working full-time brings. I'm gonna have to live back with my Dad. But I choose these sacrifices willingly for my own greater good.

I am completely unable to work like other can, it goes against my whole being - why do something which makes you so unhappy and tired when thankfully, we live in a society where chances to change are TRULY possible.

In short, I'm not preaching or pretending to be a changed man - these are my feellings, neither right nor wrong, and I understand completely how people feel differently. But in closing I've chosen to see it this way:

Screw money. I'll manage.

Screw full-time employment for someone else's benefit. I'll make my own living.

Screw feeling like I'm trapped and miserable all the time. I'll change my life.

[Jay Peas 42]

You Will Adapt in three weeks. For more practical advice, try working out more, it reduces stress, and increases energy.

[willywonka666]

Sept 22, 2008 12:06:31 GMT -5 @bigdaddyfive said:

Screw money. I'll manage.

Screw full-time employment for someone else's benefit. I'll make my own living.

Screw feeling like I'm trapped and miserable all the time. I'll change my life.

I like this

["Sweet & Sour" ImSoFudginGreat]

I can relate Godz and the only thing I can think of is that we (me and you and possibly others) need people.

I used to work retail and I used to have a really good time with some of the staff and some of the customers. But then the supervisors decided they didn't like me and started accusing me of stuff (the straw that broke the proverbial camels back was they accused me of stealing). I then moved into the admin offices (same company) and I like the job but without people I don't enjoy myself anymore.

So you've either gotta take a hit and get back to serving peole or just try to grin and bear it unfortunatly.

[RingoJ is a Horrible Man]

Try pills.

[Alucard]

Godzy the title to this thread is how I feel most of the time.

Part of it is just human nature.

[twiggy101]

Sept 22, 2008 10:21:19 GMT -5 Phosphor Glow said:

Godz, I wanna sex you up so bad, you'll be all like "Hey...stop sexin' me up. It's kinda freakin' me out." And then you buy me dinner.

Really though coming home and feeling totally drained sucks. Even my current job, which is retail, does it to me. Mostly on busy days when the lines are just ENDLESS. It's pretty tiring. But me, personally...I try to stay up as long as I can. I prefer having time AFTER work instead of before. But that's just me.

Hope you get through it okay mang.

I prefer to have time after work as well. That's why I like my job where I start in the morning and be home at 5. I think I would be stressed too if I get that kind of hours.

[Rocky Van Heineken]

Sept 22, 2008 10:17:39 GMT -5 Johnny Danger (Godz) said:

I don't even know the point of this 'thread', just to rant, mainly.

I should be happy. Got a new job to get me out of retail which I just couldn't stand another second of. It pays more than anything I've ever done before has...but I'm kinda miserable.

At least in my retail job I worked with my friends and we just screwed around and joked all day long, and it didn't even really feel like work a lot of the time. Now, I'm busting my ass all day long. It's really hard work, which I don't mind, but there is nothing resembling any sort of fun all day long. I can't really relate to ANYONE I work with, nothing to talk about, etc.

I work from noon-8:30 every day, except when I have to work overtime, so I get home anywhere between 9 PM and midnight, thus far. I'm so physically drained from the work I do that all I can do is collapse on the couch or in front of the computer for an hour or two before I go to bed and sleep till 10 the next day just to barely get enough energy to start the cycle anew.

Weekends are great. I get every weekend off, I work M-F. But at least when I worked other jobs I didn't feel dead when I got home, and I could salvage a few hours outta the nights to do what I want. Now I feel like I'm only living for the weekends, and my life doesn't stop sucking till they come. Does anyone else feel this way? How do you deal with the loss of freedom during the week? I've even tried sleeping till only 8 or 9 as opposed to 10, but then I wake up feeling sluggish and don't even WANT to do anything before I gotta leave for work at 11:30.

Hell, its time to get dressed for work right now, so I won't even be able to read any replies till tonight or tomorrow! So ya'll can probably call me an ugly mutant zombie troll freak and I'd never even know it.

That's life.

[teamjd]

I still love you godz, and that should be enough to inspire you!!

[bigdaddyfive]

Sept 22, 2008 12:36:33 GMT -5 willywonka666 said:

Sept 22, 2008 12:06:31 GMT -5 @bigdaddyfive said:

Screw money. I'll manage.

Screw full-time employment for someone else's benefit. I'll make my own living.

Screw feeling like I'm trapped and miserable all the time. I'll change my life.

I like this

Cheers, sorry if I came across as stubborn to anyone but whilst I'm young, have no family to feed and live in a land of opportunity (things not everyone has), then what is stopping me from trying to make something of myself?

After all, you only have one life in this form, one existence to leave an impression on the world - and more importantly, one lifetime to make something of yourself, in something you're happy in.

I mean, most of the conventions and ideas that we as a planet have are largely strange and quite daft when you look at them. Half the worries we have needn't exist.

Screw it - I'm going for it, might as well die tryin'!

[teamjd]

well mr english chicken, I have more or less the same outlook. Chances are you'll screw up your life or put yourself ina huge hole, but hell, at least you're not waiting until you're married or have kids to do it!