Post by Kris Kobain on Apr 23, 2010 3:07:32 GMT -5
I'll start by saying I don't like Motley Crue or anything that band stood for but:
I'm reading The Heroin Diaries. I picked it up because I love the Sixx A.M. cd and thought it was a cool concept.
What I'm finding with this book is that I share many traits with a drugged out Sixx both in my addiction and sober.
In my addiction as well as his no one really knew how bad it was at first. It was only when erractic behavior started that people seemed to take notice. In both cases even when people knew how bad it was they didn't want to say anything. In both cases the phrase "you're seemiingly indestructable" was put out there a few times by friends. In both casaes we were using in excess while those around us could use in moderation. We both od'd. We both were physicaly terrible looking. We both did a lot of things while messed up that we wish we could take back. We never learned to stop doing what we were doing despite knowing the outcome.
My drug of choice wasn't heroin. It was alcohol and prescription pills. We both mixed the two together.
Nikki on drugs was paranoid, isolated and suicidal and hallucinated. That's me in every day life. Even sober.
Nikki sober was (maybe still is) a control freak especialy with music. That's me as well.
We both came from messed up families and had traumatic childhood's.
The more I read his book the more I relate to him despite not wanting to be that.
We have both dealt with heavy deaths.
I'm still trying to get to the "life is beautiful" part in my life but that's another story.
Mark David Chapman (the man who shot John Lennon) in his state of demnetia started to believe he was Holden Caufield from The Catcher in the Rye. He had a copy of the book with him the night he shot Lennon. He re-enacted a scene from the book where he paid a hooker to just talk rather than have sex.
My question to you is have you found yourself relating to a character in a book, or movie or tv show? Maybe just a celebrity in general? Does it take you by suprise how alike you are to the person?
Any other thoughts, ideas, expressions or opinions are welcome as well as long as they aren't "advice" comments on me. That's not the reason I'm posting this thread.
I'm reading The Heroin Diaries. I picked it up because I love the Sixx A.M. cd and thought it was a cool concept.
What I'm finding with this book is that I share many traits with a drugged out Sixx both in my addiction and sober.
In my addiction as well as his no one really knew how bad it was at first. It was only when erractic behavior started that people seemed to take notice. In both cases even when people knew how bad it was they didn't want to say anything. In both cases the phrase "you're seemiingly indestructable" was put out there a few times by friends. In both casaes we were using in excess while those around us could use in moderation. We both od'd. We both were physicaly terrible looking. We both did a lot of things while messed up that we wish we could take back. We never learned to stop doing what we were doing despite knowing the outcome.
My drug of choice wasn't heroin. It was alcohol and prescription pills. We both mixed the two together.
Nikki on drugs was paranoid, isolated and suicidal and hallucinated. That's me in every day life. Even sober.
Nikki sober was (maybe still is) a control freak especialy with music. That's me as well.
We both came from messed up families and had traumatic childhood's.
The more I read his book the more I relate to him despite not wanting to be that.
We have both dealt with heavy deaths.
I'm still trying to get to the "life is beautiful" part in my life but that's another story.
Mark David Chapman (the man who shot John Lennon) in his state of demnetia started to believe he was Holden Caufield from The Catcher in the Rye. He had a copy of the book with him the night he shot Lennon. He re-enacted a scene from the book where he paid a hooker to just talk rather than have sex.
My question to you is have you found yourself relating to a character in a book, or movie or tv show? Maybe just a celebrity in general? Does it take you by suprise how alike you are to the person?
Any other thoughts, ideas, expressions or opinions are welcome as well as long as they aren't "advice" comments on me. That's not the reason I'm posting this thread.