Post by rapidfire187 on Oct 29, 2010 14:48:10 GMT -5
My girlfriend lives about 2 hours away, so we're doing the long distance thing. We've been together for a little over 2 years, but she moved in with me over a year ago. She quit her job though, and it resulted in us moving into my parents place. My parents got sick of her not pulling her weight and kicked her out after a couple of months. She then stayed with my cousin's GF for a few months, but basically the same thing happened there so she moved back home. She's been away since June.
After moving back home, her parents bought her a truck. Almost immediately afterwords, we ran into a huge problem. She came to see me shortly after getting her new ride. She waited until kind of late to leave her house and didn't show up here until early evening. We spent a few hours together and then she went home. She knew that she could have stayed for the weekend, but she said she had to go back home. I didn't hear from her for the whole weekend, which worried me sick. I then found out that she had been in town the entire time and was staying at a guy's house that I didn't know, but was a friend of one of our friends.
We broke up, but kept talking. She insisted that she didn't cheat and that she was just upset with me for some stuff (rightfully so I might add) and had only hung out with this guy because she needed someone to talk to about it. Sounded like complete BS but we eventually got back together.
Things have been pretty smooth since then, until the last 2 days. On Wednesday night we said our goodnights, and she said that she would text me after her job interview on Thursday morning. I was going to be in her town that day for a dentist appointment, and we were going to see about meeting up for a little while. We had also been planning on spending this weekend together for like the past month.
Didn't hear from her at all yesterday. She had been complaining about her phone messing up, but there were other ways she could contact me (Facebook, her brother/mom/dad's phone, home phone) but she didn't. She never replied to my texts or anything. I got ahold of her mom, and her mom said that her phone was messed up and that she had taken her little brother to the movies...this was after 10 PM on a school night.
Never heard from her last night. A little while ago (around 3 PM) she replied to a text that I sent her, basically telling me that I'm overreacting and need to chill out. I told her I was freaked out b/c she had disappeared again, and that asked if she had been home the whole time. She fell for it, and said "yes, but I've been thinking a lot. I'm not happy and I don't know what to do".
At this point I know that she's lying. I'm almost 100% certain that she was with somebody else, and has been seeing them for a while. I'm definitely not ok with that. I mean, I could handle it if she would just be upfront and break it off with me. Even if she just gave me a bogus reason for breaking up. But to be sneaking behind my back and lying and disappearing...I can't take it.
The big problem here is that I'm already barely hanging on by a thread. My car has been broken down for over a year, I don't have a job. I AM in school and I make pretty good grades, but it really doesn't help me right now. I recently broke a front tooth (making my pretty smile...not so pretty anymore...and that's one of my only attractive features). I'm dealing with a court case from 2 years ago. I'm still living with my parents. The only two pieces of property that I give a crap about are my computer and my PS2...both of which are barely working. I also gave up on a lot of my friends recently, due to various reasons. My girlfriend has really been the only thing that's kept me happy, and losing her is a serious blow to my ego and to my life in general.
I've been through this type of thing with other girls in the past, and it always screwed me up for a long time. I always try to learn from the past and not make the same mistakes again, but every chick that I date does it to me again. Most people that I know don't even give me legit advice. It's just "dude there's plenty of pussy out there, go get it". Thing is, I'm not looking for hook ups. I'm a sucker for love unfortunately, but even if I wasn't, I'm not particularly good at picking up chicks anyway.
I just don't know what to do. I'm feeling very volatile right now. I've considered suicide. I'm completely miserable. I really don't like the idea of suicide because I have no idea what I might be missing out on, but when I really analyze my past, I realize that all of my best memories are worthless because they lead to the worst moments of my life. It's an endless pattern. Everything goes great for a while, then it all comes crashing down at once. I'm not being dramatic, I literally mean that every good thing I have going for me seems to get screwed up all at once.
Any advice?
After moving back home, her parents bought her a truck. Almost immediately afterwords, we ran into a huge problem. She came to see me shortly after getting her new ride. She waited until kind of late to leave her house and didn't show up here until early evening. We spent a few hours together and then she went home. She knew that she could have stayed for the weekend, but she said she had to go back home. I didn't hear from her for the whole weekend, which worried me sick. I then found out that she had been in town the entire time and was staying at a guy's house that I didn't know, but was a friend of one of our friends.
We broke up, but kept talking. She insisted that she didn't cheat and that she was just upset with me for some stuff (rightfully so I might add) and had only hung out with this guy because she needed someone to talk to about it. Sounded like complete BS but we eventually got back together.
Things have been pretty smooth since then, until the last 2 days. On Wednesday night we said our goodnights, and she said that she would text me after her job interview on Thursday morning. I was going to be in her town that day for a dentist appointment, and we were going to see about meeting up for a little while. We had also been planning on spending this weekend together for like the past month.
Didn't hear from her at all yesterday. She had been complaining about her phone messing up, but there were other ways she could contact me (Facebook, her brother/mom/dad's phone, home phone) but she didn't. She never replied to my texts or anything. I got ahold of her mom, and her mom said that her phone was messed up and that she had taken her little brother to the movies...this was after 10 PM on a school night.
Never heard from her last night. A little while ago (around 3 PM) she replied to a text that I sent her, basically telling me that I'm overreacting and need to chill out. I told her I was freaked out b/c she had disappeared again, and that asked if she had been home the whole time. She fell for it, and said "yes, but I've been thinking a lot. I'm not happy and I don't know what to do".
At this point I know that she's lying. I'm almost 100% certain that she was with somebody else, and has been seeing them for a while. I'm definitely not ok with that. I mean, I could handle it if she would just be upfront and break it off with me. Even if she just gave me a bogus reason for breaking up. But to be sneaking behind my back and lying and disappearing...I can't take it.
The big problem here is that I'm already barely hanging on by a thread. My car has been broken down for over a year, I don't have a job. I AM in school and I make pretty good grades, but it really doesn't help me right now. I recently broke a front tooth (making my pretty smile...not so pretty anymore...and that's one of my only attractive features). I'm dealing with a court case from 2 years ago. I'm still living with my parents. The only two pieces of property that I give a crap about are my computer and my PS2...both of which are barely working. I also gave up on a lot of my friends recently, due to various reasons. My girlfriend has really been the only thing that's kept me happy, and losing her is a serious blow to my ego and to my life in general.
I've been through this type of thing with other girls in the past, and it always screwed me up for a long time. I always try to learn from the past and not make the same mistakes again, but every chick that I date does it to me again. Most people that I know don't even give me legit advice. It's just "dude there's plenty of pussy out there, go get it". Thing is, I'm not looking for hook ups. I'm a sucker for love unfortunately, but even if I wasn't, I'm not particularly good at picking up chicks anyway.
I just don't know what to do. I'm feeling very volatile right now. I've considered suicide. I'm completely miserable. I really don't like the idea of suicide because I have no idea what I might be missing out on, but when I really analyze my past, I realize that all of my best memories are worthless because they lead to the worst moments of my life. It's an endless pattern. Everything goes great for a while, then it all comes crashing down at once. I'm not being dramatic, I literally mean that every good thing I have going for me seems to get screwed up all at once.
Any advice?