Post by 543Y2J on Apr 10, 2013 18:17:27 GMT -5
Ok FAN I have known you for a long time and I considering most if not all of you really nice, decent people so I am not afraid to share as I do class you all as friends, and that's why I continue to post here. I don't do these personal threads often, if at all, so this is a unique thing for me but I just need to get it out there and actually talk to people about it.
I have this friend that I really like. I was friends with her in both upper school and college/sixth form (which was the same place with years going from 9 - 12 and then doing AS and A level in sixth form over. I moved from my original high school that went to 7 - 12 due to bullying, starting at the same time that everyone else did at year 9 in the much better middle/sixth form school but that's another story for another time). We grew apart when we both went to different Universities, as it sometimes happens. By friends I do not mean we were close friends but I did talk to her both in person and over phone a lot and also saw her out during social gaverings and what not.
I finished University about 6 months ago and we both came back to our home town once University had finished. University did increase my confidence and have one or two nights where I got to first base, but nothing more either due to them or my lack of confidence. Recently I was out in Leeds for a night out with another group of mates when I saw another old friend down the street who I was talking to, she then walked down the same street to her/our suprise and said hello and gave me a hug and she looked incredible. Since then we have been texting each other a lot and I really can't get her out of my head. We are currently arranging a "date"/night out where she shall stay at my house after (I live close to the town we are going out in), and I really scared of what I am going to say or do and I don't want to mess it up. I have always found her kind, genuinely nice, interesting, attractive (but not to the extent that it is now obviously), kind hearted, sociable person. She can be flirty at times, but I think that also comes from her being also very sociable (like I try to be on the latter), but it never comes across as too much and it is very natural.
I don't think she knows about (what I class as, as well as my family probably) my obsession with wrestling (as well as television and film), as you know we aren't as sociably acceptable or in the norm as we once were unfortunately. Moving from different schools I did consider myself a bit of an outsider and so I never had a girlfriend during teen years in high school or sixth form college, but not through lack of trying. I have confidence and some social issues (mostly due to the bullying that I went through and a few other things). I have always had trouble talking to girls especially, whether they are friends or not, in fear of what they think about me, and in fear of getting laughed at like I was at my old school. She finished her last relationship in January.
Sorry this is a terribly long post and I just really needed to get it out. Like I said I don't do these threads often if at all, so I don't know how in depth I should go but hopefully that gives you a good enough outlook on who I am and what kind of situation I am in. The fact that I have gone this personal with you guys is a good thing though, I have always liked this place and the people in it. Any help, advice, banter, discussion, anything really, would be appreciated.
I have this friend that I really like. I was friends with her in both upper school and college/sixth form (which was the same place with years going from 9 - 12 and then doing AS and A level in sixth form over. I moved from my original high school that went to 7 - 12 due to bullying, starting at the same time that everyone else did at year 9 in the much better middle/sixth form school but that's another story for another time). We grew apart when we both went to different Universities, as it sometimes happens. By friends I do not mean we were close friends but I did talk to her both in person and over phone a lot and also saw her out during social gaverings and what not.
I finished University about 6 months ago and we both came back to our home town once University had finished. University did increase my confidence and have one or two nights where I got to first base, but nothing more either due to them or my lack of confidence. Recently I was out in Leeds for a night out with another group of mates when I saw another old friend down the street who I was talking to, she then walked down the same street to her/our suprise and said hello and gave me a hug and she looked incredible. Since then we have been texting each other a lot and I really can't get her out of my head. We are currently arranging a "date"/night out where she shall stay at my house after (I live close to the town we are going out in), and I really scared of what I am going to say or do and I don't want to mess it up. I have always found her kind, genuinely nice, interesting, attractive (but not to the extent that it is now obviously), kind hearted, sociable person. She can be flirty at times, but I think that also comes from her being also very sociable (like I try to be on the latter), but it never comes across as too much and it is very natural.
I don't think she knows about (what I class as, as well as my family probably) my obsession with wrestling (as well as television and film), as you know we aren't as sociably acceptable or in the norm as we once were unfortunately. Moving from different schools I did consider myself a bit of an outsider and so I never had a girlfriend during teen years in high school or sixth form college, but not through lack of trying. I have confidence and some social issues (mostly due to the bullying that I went through and a few other things). I have always had trouble talking to girls especially, whether they are friends or not, in fear of what they think about me, and in fear of getting laughed at like I was at my old school. She finished her last relationship in January.
Sorry this is a terribly long post and I just really needed to get it out. Like I said I don't do these threads often if at all, so I don't know how in depth I should go but hopefully that gives you a good enough outlook on who I am and what kind of situation I am in. The fact that I have gone this personal with you guys is a good thing though, I have always liked this place and the people in it. Any help, advice, banter, discussion, anything really, would be appreciated.
