I think I am going crazy

[abjordans]

So, a week ago I went out and got stinking drunk. I moved to a new area, so I don't know people, so I was pretty much by myself. I don't remember anything. I have blacked out before and the same thing always happens. I don't think much about it for a few days, but then I get the worst anxiety ever. I start having all these scenarios play in my head of batshit crazy things I did that night. I am a nice person when drunk, but for some reason I have in my head that I called a lot of my friends back home and said really terrible things. It seems real, like really real. I can't stress how real it seems in my head. Like, I can hear these conversations play in my head.

Here is the thing though.. I did not place any calls from my phone that night. So, then it popped in my head I was using some random person's phone to make these calls(who would let a random drunk use their phone?) So, I have begun to ask my friends "did I drunk dial you a week ago"? They all say no. Well, when one says no, a new scenario pops in my head and I start to freak out about that. Has anyone had this kind of paranoia and anxiety before? It is almost crippling, my stomach is in knots, but I have had like 6 people assure me no such thing happened.

Has anyone experienced something lime this before? It has happened 2 other times where I have no idea what I did and my imagination goes wild.

[4TheGlory]

I have not but have you entertained the idea that perhaps you run an underground fighting organization when you're blacked out?

[Cranjis McBasketball]

Maybe drinking, your imagination and blacking out aren't for you. Might look into dropping one of them, at least.

[abjordans]

Jan 31, 2015 22:54:36 GMT -5 Cranjis McBasketball said:

Maybe drinking, your imagination and blacking out aren't for you. Might look into dropping one of them, at least.

You are right, sir.

[suave]

maybe you aren't drinking enough

[Citizen Snips Has Left]

"Crazy people don't think they're crazy. They think they're getting saner."-John Locke.

The stress of moving combined with too much of the creature just caused a bad night. These things happen.

[Evil Homer]

Yes I've had somewhat similar things happened, I always have these scenarios in my head after a night of black out drunkedness . I am very paranoid , and check my phone, text, and even check my call history online to see if any such calls were place. I also think back to the night and wonder what exactly went down , if I was in trouble with the law - did I get into any fights. I once woke up in the hospital after a night of serious drunk shenanigans - my last memory was walking into the bathroom at a club ( My friend was waiting at the Bar) - next memory I have is waking up in a doctors office, the nurse is telling me Im good to go. I ask them where am I , she said Beth Israel hospital (somewhere in Manhattan) I asked how I got there, she said via ambulance. I stumble outside , and notice there is vomit on my shirt and shoes. My phone is dead, somehow by some miracle I had cash on me , and my keys. I try to call my friend from a pay phone , but none are working. Eventually I stumble into the train - head down to Queens ( where my friend had parked his car) I get by his car , and walk into the deli and ask the guy to use his phone, I call my friend - he's not answering. Wait around for two hours at the deli ( I left a voice mail letting him know I'm at the Deli) he doesent show. It's 8 am , I had been out since 8 the night before. I get into a cab get home and sleep. That was the night I decided to cut drinking from my life, I have only been drunk twice after that- Once at a Wedding, and second at a bachelor party

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You shouldn't be experiencing any perduring paranoia, especially since the facts are clearly pointing the opposite direction your imagination is.
Paranoia is no bueno... If it happens often, you might wanna go about changing some things bud.