Post by eJm on Jul 13, 2007 12:34:44 GMT -5
'I wish I was little bit taller, I wish I was a baller, I wish I had a girl who looked good I would call her'
Skee-Lo 'I Wish'
A few weeks ago, I added someone to my MySpace. I know it's not the most different thing around here for obvious reasons.
But this was someone different. She wasn't a friend, she wasn't a schoolmate, she wasn't a band, she wasn't anything like that...she was just a London girl.
But she made me feel something I have never felt before.
Complete and utter lust. No Love. Just Lust.
This might be strange for people reading this but I have never 100% lusted for someone before. When I have a crush with someone, I usually have at least known the person before I was like 'Damn, I want to date her' or something.
This woman, though...she is something. That's putting it lightly.
To put it not so lightly, she is a complete and utter stunner. No flaws, no imperfections, all curves in the proper place. She is just so damn hot and not even just saying that in a 'Every Celebrity that appears on the cover of a men's mag is suddenly hot' hot. She really is...wow....I can't describe her any more. I don't even want to say it, but it's almost like she's my dream girl. I have never had dreams like her before, but it's like I've got a check list and she's just...checked off for everything.
She makes me want to just find where she lives and tell her to her face how I'd feel...I don't do that with people. The last major crush I had, I didn't say a word to her. I only once gave her a packet of Malteasers I won (When I say 'I gave' I meant my friend gave it to her). She had to be the one to say something to me...unfortunatly, that word was 'Goodbye'. But I got a hug out of the bargain so I was good. Until a few seconds later.
I don't love her. I don't love someone who I really don't know about and you can't love a set of pictures put up on the internet. I pratically lust for her. Every time I go on MySpace, I go to her page and look at her pictures. I would spend minutes looking at her face and her body and just everything about her. And it's not like she's a 'MySpace model' but more like someone with a good head on her shoulders....and body.....and face...and....DAMNIT
With all these things....there are always problems.
1) Since she is amazingly stunning, alot of people have added her. I don't mean tens or hundreds, I mean thousands. I've got competition. May not be as good, but still...
2) I don't know her tastes in men. At all. Yes, she added me, but she probably adds everyone considering how many friends she has, so a white nerd with the a Green Lantern MySpace backround and a liking for Pro Wrestling might NOT be on the top of her wish list
3) My rate with telling people I like them is the same as how many times Scorsese has won an Oscar. The only difference was that the first time wasn't the best time to say it. Haven't done it ever since
Seriously,I'd rather tell her all this in a message but because of her popularity, she's blocked messages and she only uses her email for buisness purposes. So instead of just going ahead of telling her, I have to just write it here to prevent myself from going insane. I'm sitting here right now on Firefox and her MySpace is on the tab right next to it. That is how insanely in lust I am for her. I just want to tell her, but I can't because she's too popular. And even if I could, like I said, it's just for Non-MySpace/Non Lusty Nerds.
I just don't know what to do. Should I just avoid this altogether and move on? Or should I risk everything on an email?
Skee-Lo 'I Wish'
A few weeks ago, I added someone to my MySpace. I know it's not the most different thing around here for obvious reasons.
But this was someone different. She wasn't a friend, she wasn't a schoolmate, she wasn't a band, she wasn't anything like that...she was just a London girl.
But she made me feel something I have never felt before.
Complete and utter lust. No Love. Just Lust.
This might be strange for people reading this but I have never 100% lusted for someone before. When I have a crush with someone, I usually have at least known the person before I was like 'Damn, I want to date her' or something.
This woman, though...she is something. That's putting it lightly.
To put it not so lightly, she is a complete and utter stunner. No flaws, no imperfections, all curves in the proper place. She is just so damn hot and not even just saying that in a 'Every Celebrity that appears on the cover of a men's mag is suddenly hot' hot. She really is...wow....I can't describe her any more. I don't even want to say it, but it's almost like she's my dream girl. I have never had dreams like her before, but it's like I've got a check list and she's just...checked off for everything.
She makes me want to just find where she lives and tell her to her face how I'd feel...I don't do that with people. The last major crush I had, I didn't say a word to her. I only once gave her a packet of Malteasers I won (When I say 'I gave' I meant my friend gave it to her). She had to be the one to say something to me...unfortunatly, that word was 'Goodbye'. But I got a hug out of the bargain so I was good. Until a few seconds later.
I don't love her. I don't love someone who I really don't know about and you can't love a set of pictures put up on the internet. I pratically lust for her. Every time I go on MySpace, I go to her page and look at her pictures. I would spend minutes looking at her face and her body and just everything about her. And it's not like she's a 'MySpace model' but more like someone with a good head on her shoulders....and body.....and face...and....DAMNIT
With all these things....there are always problems.
1) Since she is amazingly stunning, alot of people have added her. I don't mean tens or hundreds, I mean thousands. I've got competition. May not be as good, but still...
2) I don't know her tastes in men. At all. Yes, she added me, but she probably adds everyone considering how many friends she has, so a white nerd with the a Green Lantern MySpace backround and a liking for Pro Wrestling might NOT be on the top of her wish list
3) My rate with telling people I like them is the same as how many times Scorsese has won an Oscar. The only difference was that the first time wasn't the best time to say it. Haven't done it ever since
Seriously,I'd rather tell her all this in a message but because of her popularity, she's blocked messages and she only uses her email for buisness purposes. So instead of just going ahead of telling her, I have to just write it here to prevent myself from going insane. I'm sitting here right now on Firefox and her MySpace is on the tab right next to it. That is how insanely in lust I am for her. I just want to tell her, but I can't because she's too popular. And even if I could, like I said, it's just for Non-MySpace/Non Lusty Nerds.
I just don't know what to do. Should I just avoid this altogether and move on? Or should I risk everything on an email?
