Post by TheVoiceofReason on Nov 3, 2011 12:43:29 GMT -5
Maybe this isn't the right place to post this sort of thing, but at this point, I need to get this off of my mind.
Well into first semester of my freshman year and...I feel like I'm going f***ing crazy. I've been facing immense amounts of stress that come from my inability to balance out my health and school work, and the latter is causing me severe frustration.
I can't get a good night's rest and that's another significant issue for me. Sure, I mean the occasional sleepless night is rather common, but it occurs on a daily basis for me.
As a result of my deteriorating health, I can't find the motivation to do anything. Sitting in my dorm is all that is appealing right now, and I'm missing home. At home, I was involved in Taekwondo, I meditated, and I rode my bike, and the thought of not being able to do that any longer due to school obligations eats at me every single day. In other words, I'm going insane. The prospect of four more years of this is driving me mad as well.
I've contemplated taking up smoking as a way to cope, but that goes against every aspect of myself and I can't bring myself to buy a pack of cigs. I sound like a psycho right now.
It's not supposed to be like this; it just isn't. It CAN'T be like this. Maybe college isn't for me? Am I not meant to handle this amount of stress? It's all very confusing and I'm spinning out of control. Obviously I'm well-aware that there are others in my situation.
Well into first semester of my freshman year and...I feel like I'm going f***ing crazy. I've been facing immense amounts of stress that come from my inability to balance out my health and school work, and the latter is causing me severe frustration.
I can't get a good night's rest and that's another significant issue for me. Sure, I mean the occasional sleepless night is rather common, but it occurs on a daily basis for me.
As a result of my deteriorating health, I can't find the motivation to do anything. Sitting in my dorm is all that is appealing right now, and I'm missing home. At home, I was involved in Taekwondo, I meditated, and I rode my bike, and the thought of not being able to do that any longer due to school obligations eats at me every single day. In other words, I'm going insane. The prospect of four more years of this is driving me mad as well.
I've contemplated taking up smoking as a way to cope, but that goes against every aspect of myself and I can't bring myself to buy a pack of cigs. I sound like a psycho right now.
It's not supposed to be like this; it just isn't. It CAN'T be like this. Maybe college isn't for me? Am I not meant to handle this amount of stress? It's all very confusing and I'm spinning out of control. Obviously I'm well-aware that there are others in my situation.
