Post by bigmackdaddy on Jan 15, 2013 16:50:02 GMT -5
I can't help posting stuff like this because I need to vent somewhere.
Do you ever find yourself flipping through channels, or browsing through forums, until you find something that levels you, as if being punched in the gut and descending from your previous mental state into a combination of rage/sadness/desperation instantly? This happens to me quite often, and it f***ing hurts. My trigger for these episodes is rather embarrassing, but it brings about the gloominess with much intensity. This trigger is a place, but it's the symbolism of this place that is the key. A symbol of paradise for people of means to escape from the world, and leave behind everyone else for their own joy seeking. When I stumble upon these triggers, and am forced to acknowledge the place and see those people experiencing it, I just want nothing more than to see them suffer for causing me pain. I want to see them get cancer, lose an offspring, develop a life ruining addiction, etc. I want them to live in misery for making me hurt by seeing them in that place living well. It's not about their richness of material that hurts, it's about their richness of life and experience that is agonizing. Does anyone else experience this?
Do you ever find yourself flipping through channels, or browsing through forums, until you find something that levels you, as if being punched in the gut and descending from your previous mental state into a combination of rage/sadness/desperation instantly? This happens to me quite often, and it f***ing hurts. My trigger for these episodes is rather embarrassing, but it brings about the gloominess with much intensity. This trigger is a place, but it's the symbolism of this place that is the key. A symbol of paradise for people of means to escape from the world, and leave behind everyone else for their own joy seeking. When I stumble upon these triggers, and am forced to acknowledge the place and see those people experiencing it, I just want nothing more than to see them suffer for causing me pain. I want to see them get cancer, lose an offspring, develop a life ruining addiction, etc. I want them to live in misery for making me hurt by seeing them in that place living well. It's not about their richness of material that hurts, it's about their richness of life and experience that is agonizing. Does anyone else experience this?
