Post by bigmackdaddy on Jan 16, 2013 1:22:41 GMT -5
as i post this, i am drunk.
life is scary, and taking the first step in pursuit of anything within life is scarier still.
i like to talk myself out of things before even attempting them. i reason that my chances of succeding are astronmically thin, thus why should i even bother?
why bother getting an education, the job market sucks, and the debt of doing so is monumental.
why bother pursuing a hobby, it costs money, and i can't get a job.
why bother with relationships, she'll just eventually hurt me.
why bother with myself, i'll be dead in 30 or 40 years.
i just exist aimlessly walking between drinks until i cease to exist.
but whenever i do care; whenever i feel anything, it's for all the wrong reasons.
When i look upon those that took the first step, and walked along the path of life, and faced it's perils while reaping it's rewrds, and putting in their time, i get angered, and saddened that i can't trip them up.
as i sit watching, having not even set one foot down, others are sprinting by.
where does one find the courage to face life, and fight for it's rewards?
life is scary, and taking the first step in pursuit of anything within life is scarier still.
i like to talk myself out of things before even attempting them. i reason that my chances of succeding are astronmically thin, thus why should i even bother?
why bother getting an education, the job market sucks, and the debt of doing so is monumental.
why bother pursuing a hobby, it costs money, and i can't get a job.
why bother with relationships, she'll just eventually hurt me.
why bother with myself, i'll be dead in 30 or 40 years.
i just exist aimlessly walking between drinks until i cease to exist.
but whenever i do care; whenever i feel anything, it's for all the wrong reasons.
When i look upon those that took the first step, and walked along the path of life, and faced it's perils while reaping it's rewrds, and putting in their time, i get angered, and saddened that i can't trip them up.
as i sit watching, having not even set one foot down, others are sprinting by.
where does one find the courage to face life, and fight for it's rewards?
