I've been fighting suicidal urges

[Deleted]

I'm in constant pain, have breathing difficulties, can't hold a job, and I battle severe depression.

Lately, I've been thinking about putting an end to myself given how I feel & all that's happened in my personal life this past year.

If it wasn't for my brother & my friends, I likely would have already done it

This is not a life to deal with, guys. I'm getting help but its very scary for me.

[edgestar]

Please know that I am here if you need to talk, and I'm sure you would find lots of support here. I've felt sadness, where I wanted to hurt myself, and stopped taking my seizure medicine for a while. I have been back on it, for a while, but I've never been suicidal.

You've been through so much, as I've read here, but please know that your life, and most importantly, YOU, are worth it.

I am always a PM away, if you need to talk. Venting made me feel like a huge weight had been lifted.

[sternrogers01]

Life can be a hard maze to navigate. I've been there myself once or twice. Surround yourself with people who will let you know you're valued and that your opinion matters, talk to those people every chance you get, they will have advice, they may even have the kind of mirth needed to cheer you up on gloomy days.

[Milkman Norm]

Can you call someone (prevention line, friend,family,spiritual leader,professional help, etc) right now?

[The Unconquered Sun]

www.suicide.org/index.html
suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
psychcentral.com/lib/suicide-helpline-suicide-resources/

It's good that you're getting help, stick with that. Don't give up because its not worth it.
Feel free to PM me any time. I can't promise well get it fixed, but I can listen.
Wishing you peace and hope, friend

[Deleted]

Sorry if I've been bitter or combative recently; the stress is really getting to me & I have a hard time handling it safely.

But I'm thankful for this forum & to have the chance to speak to people. It was hard for me to even admit this to my confidants & friends because I personally don't want to die anytime soon.

[Mozenrath]

It's going to sound like a platitude, but the urges will eventually pass. Depression harms our ability to envision what things were like before, or that we could ever feel less terrible than we feel when a low hits. It makes it seem like it will never, ever get better, but that is a damaged perspective, not reality. Do what you need to do to keep safe.

[Deleted]

You're a good dude and I enjoy your posts even if I disagree with your opinions on The New Day breaking the record but at least you're saying something. PM anyone or get help if you feel the need to have help

[Alexander The So-so]

Never hesitate to ask for help. Everyone needs support and a listening ear. You're not alone, and you've got people willing to help you through this.

[Clash, Never a Meter Maid]

There's always a better option. As someone who's had bouts of anxiety and depression, I definitely encourage you to seek out a professional, and address friends and family about what's going on with you.

Plus you always have friends here you can speak with.

[Cyno]

Please get any help that you can. If not a therapist or a counselor, then a suicide prevention hotline. You can even text them if you have social anxieties preventing you from talking to someone on the phone.

[Urethra Franklin]

I can tell you this much: talking about this is a positive step.

Verbalizing what you're feeling is important and it helps make sense of what feels like powerlessness and hopelessness.

You're seeking help and that's the right thing to do. Know that people are there for you right now.

Hang in there, pal.

[Duke Cameron]

I know this might be easier said then done, but please, don't give up. Keep on going and living.

[Grand Papillon "The Banker"]

2 words: keep fighting

Can't pretend to know the bad that you're having to deal with but please know that if you decide on that path, you give up on more good things than you may realize.