I'm lost

[WWEedy]

Hey everyone, I've been going through a lot lately. Dealing with life is so hard and I'm so unprepared, I have been struggling to get a diagnosis for my mental health issues since I was six years old and going through a broken system I've been tossed between depression and anxiety to bipolar to emotionally unstable disorder and it feels like it's never going to end. Right now I feel like I've lost all hope of a future, I've sabotaged my present and all the things that used to mean something to me have become dead and lost to time. I feel so alone. I've been here before and I don't think I could do it again. I don't know what to do. Can someone help me? I know I'm asking a lot but if there's any way, let me know. I'm sorry but I don't know where else to turn. I know I shouldn't have posted this but really this is the only community that I'm even a small part of anymore. Thanks.

[The Legend of Groose]

I'm with ya. I wish I could find a way to help but I'm kind of having the same issues myself. You got family here, you're in good hands.

[WWEedy]

Apr 17, 2017 23:15:59 GMT -5 The Legend of Groose said:

I'm with ya. I wish I could find a way to help but I'm kind of having the same issues myself. You got family here, you're in good hands.

I'm sorry to hear that, it's okay honestly I'm just glad that someone replied and as much as I wish both of us weren't in this situation, that you can relate. I just can't seem to put myself first in anything or make the right choices and I seem to crave so much love and attention to the point that it's just doesn't seem possible that there's anyone out there who can give me it. I just have so much to give and when I don't get it back it breaks my heart. I know it's not the normal way to be and its ended with me being stabbed in the back so many times but I just can't help myself. It's f***ed.

[The Legend of Groose]

Apr 17, 2017 23:37:01 GMT -5 WWEedy said:

Apr 17, 2017 23:15:59 GMT -5 The Legend of Groose said:

I'm with ya. I wish I could find a way to help but I'm kind of having the same issues myself. You got family here, you're in good hands.

I'm sorry to hear that, it's okay honestly I'm just glad that someone replied and as much as I wish both of us weren't in this situation, that you can relate. I just can't seem to put myself first in anything or make the right choices and I seem to crave so much love and attention to the point that it's just doesn't seem possible that there's anyone out there who can give me it. I just have so much to give and when I don't get it back it breaks my heart. I know it's not the normal way to be and its ended with me being stabbed in the back so many times but I just can't help myself. It's f***ed.

Every time you try to do something nice or bend over backwards to be a good person, it blows up in your face. Yeah I get where you are coming from with that. Don't give what anyone is owned. It's good to bend over backwards for people sometimes, but doing it all the time is only going to end with being taken advantage of. At least from my experiences.

[dragonofearth]

see a shrink (seriously) there are agencies to help people for this stuff. i also have mental problems. social anxiety, paranoia, major depressive disorder, etc. and it takes a while but talking helps, and the shrink can recommend a good doctor who gives out the medications (can't think of what their called) i am seeing both. so one i go to for an hour and just talk about things that i think are wrong and are troubling me, some of the thoughts i was having, etc. and she tells you some things you can try and tries to get to the root of the problem.

the other you talk to and tell them what's wrong and they recommend medicine to help with it (like zoloft, vistril, abilify, etc.)

there are tons of these types of drugs that can help you. i take zoloft, vistril, artane, and a few others, and have tried abilify for a while. even checked myself into a hospital 3 times in a 2 month span because i was going through some real bad anxiety. (that was a big help) but when you see these people you have to be totally honest. you get what you put into it.

so if you decide to go, be honest with them. i even go to group therapy, too. and it helps to be around people who struggle with some of the same stuff you do and the person running it can suggest things (like breathing techniques for example)

i started doing most of this stuff when i was in highschool and it has helped. it also helps not to be in highschool anymore, lol. now i only have some depression here and there, instead of constantly thinking of suicide. also have a little anxiety here and there, i don't think it's meant to go away all together, but to be manageable. i'm not 100% and never will be. so, don't start going and quit once you feel better, it only feels better because of the therapy and medicine.

not that it's an illusion, either. i'm told some people have a chemical imbalance in their brains which causes these things. too much or too little of these chemicals can do a lot to mess a person up. good luck man, i hope i helped in at least a small way.