cj3
Bubba Ho-Tep
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Post by cj3 on Apr 5, 2022 14:21:32 GMT -5
Is there any movies/music/YouTube channels that are good for depression?
I don't feel quite comfortable with saying things out loud or even talking to someone (That tends to make things worse on my end), but if I can find something to help me not feel alone or distract me or something at all...that's all I need
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Post by thechase on Apr 11, 2022 14:31:24 GMT -5
I had a bad spill over the weekend, felt great in the morning and afternoon Saturday but trying to get to sleep that night was a nightmare and I gave myself a panic attack that upset the folks. Managed to go through Sunday without losing my nerve and had a better sleep, but today has been one bad spill after another, ten minutes of feeling fine every few hours, then it all comes crashing back down for several more hours.
I've lived with my demons since 1999 and I've never had it this bad ever. My mum's starting to recommend therapists but my head has fashioned so much lore revolving around this struggle that I'd be the next L.Ron Hubbard if I had any money and accidentally create a cult.
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knsffa
Team Rocket
Missed This Place and People
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Post by knsffa on Apr 13, 2022 22:23:10 GMT -5
I've had my fair share of health issues over the years. Last fall I hit a weird place and getting out of it has been difficult. It was well I won't say it because people will laugh that it helped me feel better for a bit because writing about it, trying to be creative, finding something I could see some of myself in and someone overcome something...it made me feel better on some days. The downside is I shared that with fellow fans recently including a person of note who inspired. I allowed myself to be open about my issues online and in turn feel like I just made a fool out of myself. It just made me feel worse. I won't make that mistake again.
My creative efforts where I was open about myself have been a failure, so maybe nobody saw me be open about myself. That does not change that I made a fool out of myself opening up as part of them. In trying to reach out to other fans to interact with I've had a wall put up more times than not. The 'it's more like a family' I hear about exists I'm sure, I'm just not welcome in it I feel. Did I do something wrong? People aren't willing to answer.
What this has taught me over the last five months is some of us...we are just better staying closed off. Having our real life relationships, but otherwise staying a mystery online in front of strangers. For some of us we were not meant to be creative or be of use to our fellow fans. I learned, for better or worse, I was happier when I was off in the corner looking on from the outside.
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Post by zrowsdower on May 29, 2022 21:12:00 GMT -5
I've had my fair share of health issues over the years. Last fall I hit a weird place and getting out of it has been difficult. It was well I won't say it because people will laugh that it helped me feel better for a bit because writing about it, trying to be creative, finding something I could see some of myself in and someone overcome something...it made me feel better on some days. The downside is I shared that with fellow fans recently including a person of note who inspired. I allowed myself to be open about my issues online and in turn feel like I just made a fool out of myself. It just made me feel worse. I won't make that mistake again. My creative efforts where I was open about myself have been a failure, so maybe nobody saw me be open about myself. That does not change that I made a fool out of myself opening up as part of them. In trying to reach out to other fans to interact with I've had a wall put up more times than not. The 'it's more like a family' I hear about exists I'm sure, I'm just not welcome in it I feel. Did I do something wrong? People aren't willing to answer. What this has taught me over the last five months is some of us...we are just better staying closed off. Having our real life relationships, but otherwise staying a mystery online in front of strangers. For some of us we were not meant to be creative or be of use to our fellow fans. I learned, for better or worse, I was happier when I was off in the corner looking on from the outside. Maybe you are right. Dealing with people just hurts too much.
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Post by thechase on May 31, 2022 0:22:16 GMT -5
I don't really want to kill myself, but I don't like feeling like nothing I say or do ever matters to anyone. I spend a lot of time self-funding cool things I think people will be interested in, and it's always met with indifference or no reaction at all, and it hurts to find even my creativity, which I've always been fairly confident in, isn't enough to earn at least a small pat on the back or get anyone curious about my projects.
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Post by zrowsdower on May 31, 2022 21:24:18 GMT -5
I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. I hope someone will find interest in your projects at some point soon.
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Post by thechase on May 31, 2022 23:43:13 GMT -5
I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. I hope someone will find interest in your projects at some point soon. Thanks. Everything you say matters to someone, don't let anyone tell you different.
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Post by Cyno on Jul 18, 2022 10:33:59 GMT -5
The suicide hotline in the United States has changed to 988. You can call or text it.
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Post by Mister Pigwell on Jul 25, 2022 2:08:39 GMT -5
Just giving this some activity to tell everyone that I do love all you crazy kooks and to thank you for being here with what the community means to me.
The mod circle already knows the details but to the rest of you as a whole I wanna share that I'm recovering from a suicide watch and hospital stay and my whole world basically ending and needing to be rebuilt. Feeling like it's important to state at the moment to remember to stick it through. I have my kids. A new job. A kickass comic collection. The forum community. An awesome plush duck that my youngest is letting me borrow to help me sleep. There's aspects of my life I wouldn't change for anything. Concentrate on the good y'all.
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Post by zrowsdower on Jul 28, 2022 20:27:40 GMT -5
I'm sorry for what you went through. I am at least glad you have some support.
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bog
ALF
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Post by bog on Oct 18, 2022 15:33:50 GMT -5
I never noticed this was pinned before I work for a crisis team and wanted to provide some insight into how it works, just in case you have never been through the process or don't know what to expect Essentially when you call a crisis line, you will talk to someone from the triage team who will schedule a time for an evaluation. THis is where you to meet with a clinician, who is often times accompanied by a peer specialist or recovery coach. Peers and RCs have their own lived experience with mental health and substance use, respectively. Their boundaries are different in that they are able to talk more about themselves and their experiences. The clinician themselves will ask you some questions to assess for your safety. They are looking to see what "level of care" you meet. This could be anything from us putting in referrals to outpatient providers (therapist, psych, etc). To a stay on a crisis unit, to possibly a stay in a locked inpatient hospital unit, if needed. We try to avoid this as much as possible. Crisis Units (CCS, or CSU) are a good alternative to inpatient. They are unlocked, dorm-like settings; slightly less intense than a stay in a hospital. Afterwards, a peer or recovery coach may follow up with you as needed before passing you onto your new providers, case managers, etc. If you are looking just for someone to talk to, you can call a crisis line and ask for a peer specialist or recovery coach. You could also ask for/google warmlines. I see a lot of those have already been posted. PLEASE do not feel dissuaded if the person working the crisis line/triage cannot provide some in-the-moment talking. They may pass you onto a warmline. This is because we get so many calls per day of varying levels of intensity that we need to keep lines open to schedule evaluations all day and night. Warm lines and peer specailists are for the "just talking" part, although the person working triage should of course be as caring as possible before passing you off. If you have any more questions feel free to ask
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Post by Vice honcho room temperature on Oct 27, 2022 23:40:41 GMT -5
I remember 8 years ago when Robin Williams committed suicide. It was a situation that made me think about how I delt with my emotions. We can all have pain not matter our relationships but we have to be honestly and not use humor to mask pain. It is ok to be honest with those we consider friends and say our true emotions. It's better in the long run . Also if someone expresses themselves to you listen as well. Well all need that in our lives
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Cranjis McBasketball
Crow T. Robot
Knew what the hell that thing was supposed to be
Peace Love and Nothing But
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Post by Cranjis McBasketball on Oct 30, 2022 1:25:16 GMT -5
I remember 8 years ago when Robin Williams committed suicide. It was a situation that made me think about how I delt with my emotions. We can all have pain not matter our relationships but we have to be honestly and not use humor to mask pain. It is ok to be honest with those we consider friends and say our true emotions. It's better in the long run . Also if someone expresses themselves to you listen as well. Well all need that in our lives I remember where I was when Robin died. On the road. It was a holy shit moment. That’s not the point. If you need someone to talk to, I’m always here. Obviously; my PMs are always open but that’s also not the point. Say your piece. I can tolerate a lot.
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Post by zrowsdower on Oct 31, 2022 18:50:21 GMT -5
I may be wrong for sharing all of this and I may regret it later. I have both today and tomorrow off from work. I tried doing some things for myself like going to a couple of my local video game stores. But some things happened while I was out that reminded me how I'm not worth love and acceptance. Call me a cuck or whatever, but some really painful things have happened in my life as to why I feel this way. But it's hard going out and seeing others be worth something I'm not. It' just hard in general.
Tomorrow is the start of National Novel Writing Month. I have struggled in the last few years to take part. Part of it has been the pandemic, but even then it's mostly me and just feeling inadequate around others. But this year, I would like to try going to some of the in person meet ups they have in my area. Not only that, but I'm trying to also write out some of the most painful things I have struggled with to share with my therapist. Things that involve not feeling worth love and acceptance. It's been hard though, but I want to take my time off to work on that.
But honestly, I'm worried any effort to better myself will be in vain. I am currently four and half years sober from alcohol and last year I overcame my fear of driving enough to get my license. I want to think these are good things, but sometimes, I don't feel they matter.
Anyway, I'm sorry if this came off pathetic. Today was not as good as I had hoped.
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Post by thechase on Nov 3, 2022 9:51:45 GMT -5
I may be wrong for sharing all of this and I may regret it later. I have both today and tomorrow off from work. I tried doing some things for myself like going to a couple of my local video game stores. But some things happened while I was out that reminded me how I'm not worth love and acceptance. Call me a cuck or whatever, but some really painful things have happened in my life as to why I feel this way. But it's hard going out and seeing others be worth something I'm not. It' just hard in general. Tomorrow is the start of National Novel Writing Month. I have struggled in the last few years to take part. Part of it has been the pandemic, but even then it's mostly me and just feeling inadequate around others. But this year, I would like to try going to some of the in person meet ups they have in my area. Not only that, but I'm trying to also write out some of the most painful things I have struggled with to share with my therapist. Things that involve not feeling worth love and acceptance. It's been hard though, but I want to take my time off to work on that. But honestly, I'm worried any effort to better myself will be in vain. I am currently four and half years sober from alcohol and last year I overcame my fear of driving enough to get my license. I want to think these are good things, but sometimes, I don't feel they matter. Anyway, I'm sorry if this came off pathetic. Today was not as good as I had hoped. You are not coming across as pathetic at all. Sharing this with us ought to be good for you mentally, I hope you're feeling better. And, yeah writing up your personal hang-ups can be taxing, hence why a lot of writers channel it through fictional settings.
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lucas_lee
Hank Scorpio
Heel turn is finished, now stripping away my personality
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Post by lucas_lee on Nov 4, 2022 8:13:32 GMT -5
I volunteer for the Crisis Text Line and I can assure everything you say is confidential even if you've used the service multiple times. We come into every conversation blind and with a clean slate. So if you need us we re a good service.
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Bill S. Preston, Esq.
Bye
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Post by . on Nov 10, 2022 0:04:51 GMT -5
Nah. Seeing as how the country decided to go full shit show and kill democracy piled onto All but maybe three people blocking me on here, the last site I cared about.
I don't see much of a point in continuing on.
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champchumpchange
Don Corleone
Everyone needs to drive a vehicle, even the very tall.
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Post by champchumpchange on Nov 13, 2022 1:19:35 GMT -5
Nah. Seeing as how the country decided to go full shit show and kill democracy piled onto All but maybe three people blocking me on here, the last site I cared about. I don't see much of a point in continuing on. Dude seek help outside a web forum, please.
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Post by zrowsdower on Apr 18, 2023 16:43:06 GMT -5
Just want to say, screw this world, love hurts and i hate living.
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Spider2024
Patti Mayonnaise
Dedicated 6,666th post to Irontyger
I believe in Joe Hendry.
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Post by Spider2024 on Jun 15, 2023 13:56:23 GMT -5
Just want to say, screw this world, love hurts and i hate living. I hope things have gotten better for you since then.
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