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Post by brettappedout (BLM) on May 21, 2024 9:09:43 GMT -5
I feel this the right place to post this.
The reason if anyone noticed that I haven't been posting or liking stuff until yesterday. I was in an inpatient program for week and it was the best thing I've ever done. I was going through major depression and was have more serious intrusive thoughts.
I know every inpatient isn't great for everyone, but it really helped me and encourage anyone feeling lost, sad, etc to atleast try it for few days and don't be afraid to put your feelings out there. I'm very introverted, but being with peers with similar issues and struggles really helped break me out of that.
I'm actually hoping to continue working on myself and become a peer counselor.
So yeah never be afraid to ask for help. I know it can be hard. I was for doing that for too long, and it was dumb atleast for me.
So again if you need help please get it. You're worth being alive and don't let yourself or others make you think otherwise.
I don't know everyone here, but this board has helped through so much, and I want to thank you all for that.
Sincerely, Kellen aka brettappedout.
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Post by "Gizzark" Mike Wronglevenay on May 23, 2024 11:56:36 GMT -5
Been in a rough way for the past few days. I feel it's mood swings cause I've gone off antidepressants. But...this adds to my usual self-loathing issues in general. I can't imagine how hard it is to go off those. I know some people who have and it is literally an alteration of your brain chemistry. Well done for posting about it, honestly, that is a kind of reaching out and it can be very hard to do in that position. I myself am finding at the moment that I am swinging in and out of a relatively good place and hyper paranoid anxiety which can be reeeeeal unhelpful and makes me feel more like I am going mad than if I was just anxious all the time
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Post by thechase on May 27, 2024 3:25:32 GMT -5
Just heard the awful news about PGA pro Grayson Murray and saw how the Golfing world is dealing with it. Please people, if you're aware of what's happened, try not to let it influence anything you may be thinking or feeling in a state of vulnerability, there is a very raw and emotional reaction to his loss across the community and it demonstrates that loss on this scale can be felt. People like them cared about him, and people you know care about you, you are valued, you are loved, and people like that can be there for you if you let them in. Best wishes to all.
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Post by Ultimo Gallos on Jun 3, 2024 9:57:56 GMT -5
Hope yall are doing better.
With it settling into summer my body has adjusted.
Got my doc appointment later this week. Meds are working so will be quick. Go get weighed. Talk to doc for 5 minutes about my meds. Then 20 minutes about other stuff.
Also can't express it strongly enough how much the past 16 months of getting out and forcing myself to be socialable has helped a pile.
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Post by UN PLOMBIER NIGHTMARE #blm on Jun 11, 2024 17:36:14 GMT -5
been dealing with a mix of health issues and the depression/anxiety getting much worse but i think what has been the toughest to deal with is the feeling of being mad at myself having happy moments while also constantly wondering and pondering the end.
really hard to explain but its infuriating and exhausting. it's like if you feel like absolute shit most of the time, i feel like an asshole smiling or cracking jokes or indulging in hobbies. like who the hell am i to have a sense of humor when there are days i wake up and say this should probably be it for you. going off to the movies and having a good time, get home and feel like a coward for continuing to actually find any fun and satisfaction in the dumbest stuff. i understand these things are never black and white but who am i to be goofy when i'm genuinely so very tired?
i think that's really it. i'm tired. i'm just really really tired. i'm worn out but i use that little bit of energy to try to enjoy being around my friends, i want to give what i have and i feel bad about it. just needed to vent somewhere i guess. not much that can be done
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Post by Gunhaver on Jun 27, 2024 22:17:08 GMT -5
I'm incredibly tired and feeling very bleak. Not sure how else to put it. But I feel very fake. I reflexively become a joyous goof when I'm socializing with friends because I feel like that's what's expected, but I don't feel very happy much of the time these days.
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Post by thechase on Jun 28, 2024 11:21:25 GMT -5
My creative writing is helping me through a great deal of things, but I'm always in need of proof-reading, and sometimes I publish without doing so, which makes me look bad. Also, lately my mum has been going through a repetitive cycle of health problems concerning her foot. ALL this, mixed in with the uncertainty of election season (both the UK and US) are turning my mood sour
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Post by Gunhaver on Jun 28, 2024 18:23:16 GMT -5
My creative writing is helping me through a great deal of things, but I'm always in need of proof-reading, and sometimes I publish without doing so, which makes me look bad. Also, lately my mum has been going through a repetitive cycle of health problems concerning her foot. ALL this, mixed in with the uncertainty of election season (both the UK and US) are turning my mood sour I know this wasn't exactly the focus, but if you want another set of eyes on your writing I'd happily volunteer. Some friends and I have a small critique circle, so I've got some experience. That and my degree.
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Post by thechase on Jun 28, 2024 22:34:59 GMT -5
My creative writing is helping me through a great deal of things, but I'm always in need of proof-reading, and sometimes I publish without doing so, which makes me look bad. Also, lately my mum has been going through a repetitive cycle of health problems concerning her foot. ALL this, mixed in with the uncertainty of election season (both the UK and US) are turning my mood sour I know this wasn't exactly the focus, but if you want another set of eyes on your writing I'd happily volunteer. Some friends and I have a small critique circle, so I've got some experience. That and my degree. I appreciate that, thanks. There might be something at the moment you can help me crack, I'll be in touch about it.
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Post by Ultimo Gallos on Jun 30, 2024 18:09:04 GMT -5
Saturday started off great.
Then a combo of getting overheated plus an argument with the ex wife made me just foul.
By 4pm she ,not the ex wife,was telling me "Just go take one of your pills and lay down watch a movie relax."
I took one of my valiums. Laid down and before the trailers before the movie ended I was asleep.
And besides waking up once to pee I slept right at 13 hours.
Realized years ago sometimes my brain just needs to shut down and reset. Guessing yesterday was one of those days.
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Post by thechase on Jul 1, 2024 1:30:59 GMT -5
My own brother accused me of bullying his son just for reminding him that it was time to put away his toys and head home
I was born with a certain kind of tone in my voice that people often mistake for aggression, and it's never intended.
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Post by zrowsdower on Jul 4, 2024 2:56:05 GMT -5
My own brother accused me of bullying his son just for reminding him that it was time to put away his toys and head home I was born with a certain kind of tone in my voice that people often mistake for aggression, and it's never intended. I'm sorry that happened. That doesn't sound like bullying.
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Post by thechase on Jul 4, 2024 3:50:59 GMT -5
My own brother accused me of bullying his son just for reminding him that it was time to put away his toys and head home I was born with a certain kind of tone in my voice that people often mistake for aggression, and it's never intended. I'm sorry that happened. That doesn't sound like bullying. Yeah, he was just being over-protective, my semi-aggressive vocal tone is what triggered him, but like I said, that's been a particular trait I was born with and can't seem to manage that well. My exact words were "No, no play, time to go home pal"
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Post by Ultimo Gallos on Jul 4, 2024 9:51:38 GMT -5
I'm sorry that happened. That doesn't sound like bullying. Yeah, he was just being over-protective, my semi-aggressive vocal tone is what triggered him, but like I said, that's been a particular trait I was born with and can't seem to manage that well. My exact words were "No, no play, time to go home pal" I got a loud voice that can do that to people. Now I just talk fairly quiet,unless I am at a show. Learned last night what I had suspected for a week,good friend had an episode about 8 days ago and it currently doing ok at the local crisis center. Dude just has to learn that he has to make time for himself. Even if it is just an hour each day. Was manic and in a great mood most of yesterday,when I wasn't around anyone. Today gotta be socialable and yea rather not be around anyone. It's cool her family knows me well enough to tell when I am not very talkative I'm not being an asshole.
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Post by BlackoutCreature on Jul 15, 2024 16:49:38 GMT -5
I don't know if this is the place to go for this, but I honestly don't know where else to turn and I don't know who to talk to about this. I don't want to get too deep into this because of board rules, but the election is getting to me. Very very badly. I've barely slept the last few weeks, my mind is going 100 miles a second with worry and anxiety, my stomach is in knots. It's a chore to get to work and I can barely get out of bed when I don't have to. Just constantly feeling despair. And it's only going to get worse.
I want help, but I don't know how to find it, where to find it. I don't even know if counseling is appropriate for something like this. I feel like a privileged white guy that would only be taking away resources from people who really need it. I don't know what to do or where to turn.
Does anybody have any advice? Any information? Anything?
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Post by darbus alan on Jul 16, 2024 18:06:10 GMT -5
I don't know if this is the place to go for this, but I honestly don't know where else to turn and I don't know who to talk to about this. I don't want to get too deep into this because of board rules, but the election is getting to me. Very very badly. I've barely slept the last few weeks, my mind is going 100 miles a second with worry and anxiety, my stomach is in knots. It's a chore to get to work and I can barely get out of bed when I don't have to. Just constantly feeling despair. And it's only going to get worse. I want help, but I don't know how to find it, where to find it. I don't even know if counseling is appropriate for something like this. I feel like a privileged white guy that would only be taking away resources from people who really need it. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Does anybody have any advice? Any information? Anything? Being a privileged white guy doesn't mean you shouldn't seek out counseling or therapy. A professional is going to give you much better advice than anyone else. In the meantime, filter out social media if not cut it out entirely. You'll phase out the loudest and most sensationalist talking heads on both ends.
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Post by BlackoutCreature on Jul 16, 2024 19:00:50 GMT -5
I don't know if this is the place to go for this, but I honestly don't know where else to turn and I don't know who to talk to about this. I don't want to get too deep into this because of board rules, but the election is getting to me. Very very badly. I've barely slept the last few weeks, my mind is going 100 miles a second with worry and anxiety, my stomach is in knots. It's a chore to get to work and I can barely get out of bed when I don't have to. Just constantly feeling despair. And it's only going to get worse. I want help, but I don't know how to find it, where to find it. I don't even know if counseling is appropriate for something like this. I feel like a privileged white guy that would only be taking away resources from people who really need it. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Does anybody have any advice? Any information? Anything? Being a privileged white guy doesn't mean you shouldn't seek out counseling or therapy. A professional is going to give you much better advice than anyone else. In the meantime, filter out social media if not cut it out entirely. You'll phase out the loudest and most sensationalist talking heads on both ends. I try to, but it just feels like I'm sticking my head in the sand. I've made an appointment to talk to someone next week. Don't know how much it will help, but at least I can vent.
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Post by thechase on Jul 17, 2024 8:44:13 GMT -5
You're not alone Blackout, Election worries are getting to me too, and I don't even live in the States.
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Post by Limity (BLM) on Jul 17, 2024 13:59:42 GMT -5
I don't know if this is the place to go for this, but I honestly don't know where else to turn and I don't know who to talk to about this. I don't want to get too deep into this because of board rules, but the election is getting to me. Very very badly. I've barely slept the last few weeks, my mind is going 100 miles a second with worry and anxiety, my stomach is in knots. It's a chore to get to work and I can barely get out of bed when I don't have to. Just constantly feeling despair. And it's only going to get worse. I want help, but I don't know how to find it, where to find it. I don't even know if counseling is appropriate for something like this. I feel like a privileged white guy that would only be taking away resources from people who really need it. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Does anybody have any advice? Any information? Anything? If a counselor has an opening for you to take and talk to them, that means you're not taking that spot away from someone else.
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Post by Gunhaver on Jul 23, 2024 12:02:14 GMT -5
I don't know if this is the place to go for this, but I honestly don't know where else to turn and I don't know who to talk to about this. I don't want to get too deep into this because of board rules, but the election is getting to me. Very very badly. I've barely slept the last few weeks, my mind is going 100 miles a second with worry and anxiety, my stomach is in knots. It's a chore to get to work and I can barely get out of bed when I don't have to. Just constantly feeling despair. And it's only going to get worse. I want help, but I don't know how to find it, where to find it. I don't even know if counseling is appropriate for something like this. I feel like a privileged white guy that would only be taking away resources from people who really need it. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Does anybody have any advice? Any information? Anything? Sorry for being so late to see this, but I just wanted to suggest if you wanted to talk to someone immediately/in between appointments/whatever, Crisis Text Line would be more than welcoming to this sort of thing. Election anxiety is a very real concern and they treat it as such. I can understand thinking that it's not a worthy issue or that you're taking resources from people with "real" issues, but I can assure you neither is the case.
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