Post by Lizuka #BLM on Sept 9, 2023 20:15:49 GMT -5
Not really super broken up about either since neither was really a shock, and they're not related, but still just kind of feels weird to think about and it's kind of been a bit of a general punch in the gut kind of day. Kind of making a thread to talk about them more out of feeling like I probably should than being like crushed with despair about them or anything.
In the case of my uncle, you might remember a few years ago when I made a thread about my aunt dying in a car wreck. He was her husband (and she was the one I was actually related to) and he's someone I've kind of known my whole life, but since her death he'd kind of fallen hard into drugs and stuff (which he already had a heavy history of as it was) and been in and out of jail a lot, largely had fallen out of really associating with him. Think last time I saw him was meeting up with him for a minute over something in a grocery store parking lot a few months ago. Had the news of his death dropped on me in a very, "Oh wait, you didn't hear?" kind of way so it felt like a shock in that regard, but on the broader level the only real surprise of him overdosing was that it took six years after her death for it to happen given just how badly he went downhill afterward and how he wasn't a very stable person to begin with.
The cat wasn't a surprise either but for different reasons. Had been breathing very heavily for a few days and unfortunately not really had the opportunity to get him to the vet, so just kind of been making things comfortable for him the past few days and just kind of trying to make sure he hung in there until we could get him checked out. He didn't really seem necessarily on the verge of death or anything - was weak to be sure but he was getting around okay and didn't seem to be in too much pain or anything - but his breathing was definitely an issue. Went to check on him where we'd been keeping him separate from the other animals in my grandma's room and found him dead in her bathroom, so that's certainly going to be a thing to think about when I use that one instead of the other one from now on. I feel like they probably would've put him down if we got him to the vet anyway but still wish had had the chance to do that instead of having it happen at home, even if he didn't really seem to be suffering too terribly much even though the heavy breathing.
I dunno. Like I said, I'm not like feeling tortured over either or wanting to cry or anything but it still has made for a really weird progressive gut punch of a day and I kind of feel like I should talk about it just to make sure I'm properly processing it.
In the case of my uncle, you might remember a few years ago when I made a thread about my aunt dying in a car wreck. He was her husband (and she was the one I was actually related to) and he's someone I've kind of known my whole life, but since her death he'd kind of fallen hard into drugs and stuff (which he already had a heavy history of as it was) and been in and out of jail a lot, largely had fallen out of really associating with him. Think last time I saw him was meeting up with him for a minute over something in a grocery store parking lot a few months ago. Had the news of his death dropped on me in a very, "Oh wait, you didn't hear?" kind of way so it felt like a shock in that regard, but on the broader level the only real surprise of him overdosing was that it took six years after her death for it to happen given just how badly he went downhill afterward and how he wasn't a very stable person to begin with.
The cat wasn't a surprise either but for different reasons. Had been breathing very heavily for a few days and unfortunately not really had the opportunity to get him to the vet, so just kind of been making things comfortable for him the past few days and just kind of trying to make sure he hung in there until we could get him checked out. He didn't really seem necessarily on the verge of death or anything - was weak to be sure but he was getting around okay and didn't seem to be in too much pain or anything - but his breathing was definitely an issue. Went to check on him where we'd been keeping him separate from the other animals in my grandma's room and found him dead in her bathroom, so that's certainly going to be a thing to think about when I use that one instead of the other one from now on. I feel like they probably would've put him down if we got him to the vet anyway but still wish had had the chance to do that instead of having it happen at home, even if he didn't really seem to be suffering too terribly much even though the heavy breathing.
I dunno. Like I said, I'm not like feeling tortured over either or wanting to cry or anything but it still has made for a really weird progressive gut punch of a day and I kind of feel like I should talk about it just to make sure I'm properly processing it.
It is indeed a lot to deal with all at once, take it one day at a time is my advice. 
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